It was actually a post I wrote some time ago on my own blog about my then two year old. That two year old is now three (almost four) and things have changed some. She is still a firecracker. She still has a strong personality. She still likes to boss around me and anybody else near her. And I still love her and am still trying to figure things out.
There was an interesting comment on the post when I shared it on Mothering though. She pointed out that I was the problem in the relationship with my daughter and the reason she acts the way she does. Let me just share a bit of it. (Now don't go commenting and tearing this woman apart. Her thoughts are valid and probably pretty common.)
This isn't the entire quote but it is the gist of it. She also talked about how women need to "get over" listening to the cries of their children and be a little bit more like...well, men, in this regard. It got me thinking, this comment did. So let's talk...
Now I should admit up front that I am no attachment parenting guru, junkie or firm believer. I do some things that are very "attached" but as time has gone on and I have added children in a relatively quick fashion, I have found that extremism in the AP camp simply makes me want to jump off a balcony. And frankly, if mom is so sleep deprived and miserable from various aspects of parenting, the whole family suffers. (Yes, this can happen with attachment parenting. Ask around. Or just ask me.)
That being said, I am still kind of a sucker when it comes to crying babies. I have four kids now and somebody is usually crying at any given moment so I can tune out crying these days...but a baby. That is a different story.
I actually have a hard time believing that women should TOTALLY tune out the tears of their infants. I am kind of old fashioned in this way but I actually still think that women have special gifts as nurturers. I LOVE this about being a woman. I think there is great power in sensitivity and kindness and nurturing. My husband- he parents differently than I do. And while this results in the occasional conflict, in the long run I think we balance each other out. In fact, I kind of think of parenting with a partner as a kind of prolonged game of good cop/bad cop. And, since I am the nurturing mother, I often get to play good cop.
I don't know why the founders of this magazine named it "Mothering" but I want to believe that they saw this too- the beauty of a nurturing mother. It is a wonderful thing to "mother" not a weakness.
I am sincerely and frequently more sensitive to the needs of my kids than he (my husband) is. We work together and we (hopefully) will end up with functional adults at some later date. Time will tell.
But back to the comment- she mentions a few times learning from her husband how to be more of a leader or a "bad cop". I can honestly see how this might yield a more behaved child. But I can also really see some beauty in children having somebody to hug them when they get disciplined. Not because mom and dad are on different teams, but because sometimes they play different roles on the same team. One has to lay down the law, and the other gets to recognize that this might be necessary, but it isn't always easy.
Call me crazy for believing that justice goes down a little easier with some mercy to tag along.
The other thing that really stood out to me in this comment was the reference to dog training! Kind of funny- right?! (Or not.)
Now my husband and I actually did read Cesar Milan's book on training puppies that she refers to when we got a dog and we learned a lot from it. In fact, there are some good lessons for parents in there. Consistency. Safety. Proper feeding. Boundaries. Those are kind of universal things when it comes to caring for other humans, just like dogs. But I don't really think that Cesar means his book to be applied to all human relationships. He talks a lot about "dog psychology" so I assume he realizes that human psychology is a little different.
And it is true that you can yield some very bratty kids if they are treated as though they are the absolute "alpha dog" in the family "pack". But I like to believe that family dynamics are a little more fluid and complicated than a dog pack. Milan talks a lot about establishing dominance so that the dogs will recognize you as the alpha or pack leader.
I can actually admit that when I read Cesar's book I drempt fondly of being the pack leader in my house... That would be nice.
And as the mom I kind of AM the leader...sometimes.
But I hope my kids don't come out of my home thinking that one person gets to be in charge and everybody else just has to fight for second place. I hope they learn in our home (and from me) the beauty of sacrifice. The joy of giving so that somebody else can have. The love that grows when you do something kind for somebody just because you wanted to. And I hope they learn that sometimes they will be on the receiving end of kindness, and often they need to be on the giving end. In fact, I hope that I am clear enough and honor my own needs enough that they realize that sometimes even MOM needs others to give for her.
The truth is that family dynamics are much more complicated than an alpha dog and a pecking order in a dog pack. Part of being a child and growing in a family is learning that there is something wonderful about NOT being the alpha every once in a while. (And I think sometimes AP has a tendency to forget that people other than the child have needs. But maybe that is just me.)
The other thing I noticed about this comment was the apparent "one time" cry-it-out session that magically yielded a wonderful child.
You know what- if making a child fabulous was that easy, I would sign up TODAY.
I will go ahead and commit parenting suicide right now and admit that at some time I have let all of my kids cry. I am not proud of it- but I am not too ashamed either. If I let me child cry it was because I seriously felt like I couldn't take it any more OR I felt that they just needed a minute without my stress OR I was too frustrated to be a good parent without a break.
I don't love cry-it-out but there may at times be a place for it.
But I SERIOUSLY doubt that letting a child cry makes them perfect in one night. There is literally nothing about being a parent that is that easy. I have however had children with a personalty that lacked what I will call "fight". Some kids are more willing to fuss for a minute or two and then say, "This sucks. I'm going to sleep." I have had kids like this and I will tell you - they are easy to put to bed.
Now my almost four year old that I wrote about and that this mom commented about- she was NOT that child. There are lots of mistakes I make with her and I am sure some of them contribute to her inappropriate behavior. But some of who she is- it is just HER. As parents I think sometimes we need to...well, feel less guilty. We also need to recognize that our children have free will and agency. We have the same gift. Just because they are little doesn't mean they don't have agency too. They may not be old or wise enough to always know WHAT they should do with that free agency, but we are old enough and wise enough to respect them (and expect some respect in return.)
I guess all I am trying to say is that raising kids isn't quite as easy as raising a dog. If it were they would potty train when they were a few weeks old and I could shower them with a hose and lock them outside when I had people over.
Parenting is a little more complicated than dog training, and the stakes are higher, but hopefully the rewards are much greater. And hopefully we as mothers honor our need for respect without forgetting that to be a nurturing, loving, and kind mother is a beautiful thing. We should never be ashamed of nurturing our children. They aren't dogs and we are so much more than trainers.
Sarah Clark is a mother of four children between the ages of 8 and 2 years. She is a natural birth teacher and serves on the management team for Birth Boot Camp, a company offering live and online natural birth classes. She washes a lot of towels. Because seriously, kids use a lot of towels.