OMG reading these posts has both made me cry and lifted this huge weight off my chest. I had my son just over 2 months ago and the labor went from all natural (I wanted a water birth at home with a doula and no pain meds) to having him in a hospital with an epidural after 12 or so hours of labor and then 8 hours later a c-section. First the doula was on vacation and her backup wasn't available. The 2nd backup didn't show up for hours and then left when the 1st backup...