I suppose it all started when I had tried to break up with my boyfriend of a few months after coming out of a tragic military marriage where it ended in fear for my life.  Midnight wake up calls to a gun pulled on me telling me to get down because we were in live fire.  That life, that marriage quickly dissolved and the years of waiting for a soliders return were wasted when on Christmas day he decided to ask for a divorce. I briefly dated nurmerous guys from models, to...