I could just kiss you for most of that, especially the skin to skin!! The 2 things I'd like to add are "other peoples' advice is for other people, use what you want but discard what doesn't sit right for you" "Guilt is what you are meant to feel because it's your job to want to always do better, but you have every right to let yourself know that it's just a superficial feeling and you are doing a great job"