i feel that i'm all dd has. i haven't heard from her father in a month and he is suppossed to call every week. last time i called i ended up crying and i don't want to do that but i wonder if he is in the hospital or hurt. oh, well he has a girlfriend to take care of him. to get back to the ot, i too, wonder if i'll ever be able to give dd a sibling aside from the ones her dad has. i want at least 2 more but i doubt it will happen, just because of my age. i'll be 40 in june.