PG after Infertility/Loss - Page 2

[seattle mama]

I've had 2 MC's since May. I hope the third time's a charm! I'm having big boob issues and very tired but no significant nausea yet. I wish I did. I am having horrifying dreams I can't even write about them but they haunt me during the daytime too. I try positive affirmations and meditation, but I guess I can't escape the fear in my subconcious. My sisters and mom have had many children with no problems. I'm 34 and this is our first. I had no idea the little guys would be so fragile. Hold on to hope and stay positive!

[geekgolightly]

I am here, with hope peeking out, despite my worry that I will miscarry again. It sounds horrible, but I suspected I was pregnant and I wouldn't take my prenatal and continued to drink my coffee at work (about 16 oz) because I didn't want another month of hoping against hope only to have it dashed.

And after the miscarriage in September, to be pregnant so soon is a miracle. I am four weeks four days according to my LMP. Due July 30th. There is me that is thrilled and joyful, and the other side of me that wants to hold off and not get too attached because it might happen again.

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[TTC Catholic]

I understand your fear

Hi Songbird,

It's great to see you on the pregnancy thread. After 15 months of TTC and being told by my RE that my DH & I only had a one percent chance of conceiving on our own (due to my extensive history of ovarian cysts, endometriosis, and surgeries), we were planning on starting IVF next year, which we were told would only give us a 30% chance of conceiving. I could not believe my eyes three weeks ago when I saw two pink lines on the HPT!

As excited as I was, I have been extremely cautious. Less than a week after getting my good news, I started cramping and bleeding. Scared to death, I went to the ER, and my OB admitted me for the weekend to ensure everything was okay. It turned out I had implantation bleeding, which I still actually have. I am now seven weeks, and I have had several HCG blood tests to confirm the pregnancy is progressing normally. I had an ultrasound on Friday, and I was thrilled to finally see my tiny little baby.

I still go through every day knowing something could go wrong. My husband and I made the decision early on to tell our family and friends. They have been so supportive, and we have countless people, including people we don't even know, praying for us. That brings us some comfort.

I know how scary it is when you finally seem to have what you have wished for your entire life. To know you could lose the baby is an absolutely real fear. Please know that I am praying for you.

God bless you,
Kristin

[songbird45]

Congratulations on your pregnancy, Kristin! I'm sort of generally optimistic, but I have to admit that every time the symptoms go away for more than a few hours I get really worried. They're the only thing telling me that the baby is okay, yk?

I've told some specific people. Since we've been ttc for so long, a bunch of people knew we were trying, and I've sort of been telling those people one by one. I can trust them to be discreet, though - they were discreet about the IF issues - and if everything goes well for the next month or so I'll tell everybody. If something happens, I don't want to go through a m/c all by myself. I'll want the people closest to me to support me through it.

[songbird45]

talk me down, ladies.. I have not had any symptoms at all today! no gagging, no tiredness, even my breasts feel more normal today. I'm scared!

[majorsky]

Originally Posted by songbird45

talk me down, ladies.. I have not had any symptoms at all today! no gagging, no tiredness, even my breasts feel more normal today. I'm scared!

I've been dealing with that throughout this PG... I've had only mild nausea and mild tiredness. That worries me because it's the opposite of my first PG. Some days even my breasts feel smaller and don't hurt much (or at all). I wait a few hours and my breasts seem to return to the old PG size and discomfort.

One of the things I've done to help me feel a bit better is taking my temp every morning now. As long as it remains static (no drop), I feel a little better. I keep reminding myself that every PG is different and I've had no signs yet that I will lose this one. The calmer I remain, the better things will probably be.

to you.

Kristin

[sarahsmiles]

Wow! I am so amazed at everyone's strength. My miscarriage earlier this year was pretty traumatic, and of course I'm completely paranoid about this pregnancy, but you ladies are a very strong bunch!

I tried to talk the receptionist into an earlier appointment so I could ask the midwife what I could do. One of my friends who has had two second-trimester deliveries said I needed to have my hormones monitored all the time so that as soon as something goes wrong, I could have a D&C instead of a "natural" miscarriage, but I'm rejecting that approach.

I don't know if I'll make it to the 8 week ultrasound, though. I'm trying to psych myself up for seeing a heartbeat, but I fear what will happen if I don't.

I didn't tell anyone except MIL and a few close friends last time, then had to explain the work absences and depression to my boss and a few colleagues, so I don't know what route to take this time.

I am just sending hugs and support for everyone who has suffered.

[songbird45]

false alarm! After feeling not-at-all-pregnant the entire day, I actually threw up at work for the first time at 4:30pm. I'm so relieved.

[majorsky]

Originally Posted by songbird45

false alarm! After feeling not-at-all-pregnant the entire day, I actually threw up at work for the first time at 4:30pm. I'm so relieved.

I never thought I'd say this, but YAYYYYY!!! Congratulations.

Kristin

[Mama_Michelle]

Originally Posted by songbird45

talk me down, ladies.. I have not had any symptoms at all today! no gagging, no tiredness, even my breasts feel more normal today. I'm scared!

Its hard when the symptoms just come and go...I am glad you threw up!

[veganmama719]

Well, I am sitting in my office on the 11th floor of a highrise. About 40 people can see into my office from the other tower of the building.

Every hour or so I punch myself in the chest to see if my BBs are still sore. Whaddya think they make of that?

So far (5w4d) I have only sore BBs and fatigue. Looking forward to the nausea kicking in as I never really had that with my two M/C.

I nnever had it with my DS either though. DD, I was sick as a dog for months.

I'd take that right now.

[bemommy]

Hello, thought I'd peep in. My history is interesting. I conceived my DD easily. When we decided we were ready for another we tried for 2 years, which included 2 early m/c. It was dreadful. When I did finally conceive ds I was on daily injections of progesterone. Since his birth I have to admit that DH and I have been a bit cavalier when it comes to bc (even though we thought we might be done). I conceived earlier this year, found out I was pregnant on ds's first birthday, but then m/c at 8.5 weeks.

Here I am, unexpectedly, pregnant again. I'll be 9 weeks tomorrow. I have my first appointment with my OB next week.

[veganmama719]

Just bumping us up.
I am starting to feel sick now (6w2d) so I guess that is a good sign. My "viability" u/s is one week from today.

[majorsky]

Originally Posted by veganmama719

Just bumping us up.
I am starting to feel sick now (6w2d) so I guess that is a good sign. My "viability" u/s is one week from today.

Yeah, the last week has brought on mild but regular m/s throughout the day... it's certainly a comforting feeling. I'm wearing my nausea wristbands quite a bit.

Kristin

[songbird45]

Originally Posted by veganmama719

Just bumping us up.
I am starting to feel sick now (6w2d) so I guess that is a good sign. My "viability" u/s is one week from today.

YAY! It's so comforting to have symptoms. I'm personally going completely bananas because it's been 3 weeks since my ultrasound and it's still another two weeks before my next mw appointment and I want confirmation that it's still in there!

[shantiani]

I just got back from my viability ultrasound..... and I saw my first heartbeat ever!!!!!! It's still so early that all I could see was a little blob, but I could definitely see a beating blob :

And I'm so happy to hear symptoms are kicking in for everyone! Yay for nausea! I still just have sore boobs and tiredness... not much nausea, although now and then I think maybe I feel it. I just keep squeezing my boobs and smiling.

[sarahsmiles]

Shantiani--that's great news -- thanks for sharing! :

I'm trying to convince myself that my horrible nausea is a good sign. I don't remember this with either previous pregnancy.

[Caroline P]

Hi there,
I went through 2.5 yrs of ttc and fertility treatments to get pg with my now 2 year old son. This pregnancy was a HUGE surprise and I'm loving every moment. Only 7 weeks today, but am going to my old RE for an u/s to hopefully see a heart beat on Thrusday. I'll feel a lot better after that.

Its not easy having been through any IF or m/c. You always are worried and find it hard to just gestate in peace. I'll feel more confident telling everyone after we see the h/b. I know the odds are 97% that all will be fine after a h/b is seen...so that's good.
Good luck to all you mamas out there.

[veganmama719]

Yay shantiani, I am so happy for you!!

Welcome to the thread Caroline!

[bemommy]

I have my appointment with my OB this Thursday (I'll be 10w). I'm beginning to worry a bit. What if we don't hear a heartbeat? Or if the heartbeat is wonky?

It's crazy the stuff we put ourselves through. I need to just relax.