I too, have spent much time thinking about this. We talked about it a bit over on the ttc board, in the ttc #2 in our 30s thread. I think something I said there has some relativity here:
Originally Posted by learnlovebe
You know, I was thinking about this post earlier today. I wonder....do you think our mothers put this much thought into child spacing, family size, etc?
Do we (this generation of Mommas) just overthink everything?
On one hand, it's good to think about how another child is going to affect (or is it effect? I have a degree in English and I can never remember) our family, our lives, our careers, and the demands on ourselves. We don't just want to jump into things- planning is power, right?
One the other hand, I think this can lead to us worrying about everything and second-guessing our strengths. When were planning/pregnant w/ #1, did we REALLY know what we were getting ourselves into? Everyone told us our lives were "about to change," but how many of us REALLY knew what that meant. Then our beloved first baby arrived and suddenly we're REALLY thrust into motherhood. Some of us had a bit of a learning curve, and some of us thrived from day one...but we all learned, grew, and I don't know about you, but the woman I am today can out-cook, out-laundry, out-multi-task, out-organize, out-problem-solve and out-bargain-shop the woman I was just two short years ago. Not to mention kick her butt.
What I wonder is if this applies to baby # 2 as well. If we concieve in 2 weeks (*hopefully!*), will the mom I am in 2 years be able to kick my butt?
Just some random thoughts I'd share. If you think this is a long post...ha! You should have seen what I had written before! This is the edited version!
And now that it IS happening- my ds is going to be a big brother in July (he'll be 2 years, 1 month)- I find myself looking at him more, just taking in his sweetness, all his features, his energy. I hold him just a bit longer when I put him to bed. I guess you could say I cherish him even more now. Is that weird?
But I guess mostly, I'm excited FOR him. He's always going to be my first child, and there will always be a special place in my heart for him, but now he'll get to be that AND a big brother. His little brother or sister is really lucky to have him...(and now I'm bawling- stupid, crazy hormones!).