Mixed feelings about it of course, but I am leaning toward thinking it's the right decision. Please don't revoke my natural-mama card! 
I had some testing this morning and it looks like the baby is not being affected by my thyroid issues, but they can't be sure. The midwives and their backup docs said that going a few days more days (tomorrow is my due date) would most likely be OK, but unfortunately there are no induction slots until next Monday, and some of them felt that was probably too long. So they made me an appointment for 8 am tomorrow (Tuesday) but said they can't force me, it's up to me - show up or don't. What a decision to make....I'm SO not sure what to do. But I really do feel like this baby - and me - are ready. I'm 3-4 cm, baby is getting lower, lost the mucus plug/had bloody show, been having contrx, so they said I'll probably only need the slightest push to get things going.
So why do I feel like I'm doing something wrong? I mean, it's not like I'm having an elective induction at 37 weeks to avoid stretch marks or something
OTOH, I'd never forgive myself if I chose not to show up tomorrow and God forbid something bad happened. And I'm sure I'll be all worried over Thanksgiving and the weekend...I've been kind of paranoid this time around with the issues I've had, and I'm sorry, with all the stress we're under right now (DH still unemployed, our house in AZ still unsold, living with my mother, having moved across the country TWICE in recent months, etc.) I might be selfish but I kind of just want *something* in my life to be simple and certain right now, yk? But I really wanted this baby to just come when she was ready.
I'll probably be thinking about it all night and won't make my final decision until the morning, but I just thought I'd post here that I *may* have a baby by this time tomorrow, one way or another!

I had some testing this morning and it looks like the baby is not being affected by my thyroid issues, but they can't be sure. The midwives and their backup docs said that going a few days more days (tomorrow is my due date) would most likely be OK, but unfortunately there are no induction slots until next Monday, and some of them felt that was probably too long. So they made me an appointment for 8 am tomorrow (Tuesday) but said they can't force me, it's up to me - show up or don't. What a decision to make....I'm SO not sure what to do. But I really do feel like this baby - and me - are ready. I'm 3-4 cm, baby is getting lower, lost the mucus plug/had bloody show, been having contrx, so they said I'll probably only need the slightest push to get things going.
So why do I feel like I'm doing something wrong? I mean, it's not like I'm having an elective induction at 37 weeks to avoid stretch marks or something
OTOH, I'd never forgive myself if I chose not to show up tomorrow and God forbid something bad happened. And I'm sure I'll be all worried over Thanksgiving and the weekend...I've been kind of paranoid this time around with the issues I've had, and I'm sorry, with all the stress we're under right now (DH still unemployed, our house in AZ still unsold, living with my mother, having moved across the country TWICE in recent months, etc.) I might be selfish but I kind of just want *something* in my life to be simple and certain right now, yk? But I really wanted this baby to just come when she was ready.I'll probably be thinking about it all night and won't make my final decision until the morning, but I just thought I'd post here that I *may* have a baby by this time tomorrow, one way or another!







: for safe, happy, healthy delivery one way or the other!
You need to do whats best for you and the baby.. Not every induction is a bad thing, sometimes they are medically needed. Good luck, take care of yourself and that baby.
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hoping you are holding your baby right now...
Went in yesterday at 8 am for Pitocin and the induction attempt failed. The midwives and nurses were shocked - they said for a 4th baby at 40 weeks with all the signs my body was ready, they were betting I'd go by lunchtime! But after 8 hours on Pit, I was contracting every 2 minutes but my cervix did not change AT ALL all day
: but this is just me....