So, I pushed for like 30 minutes and everything was going fine and slow until my MW said that his heart rate dropped and didnt come back up and they wanted me to "get him out now" so i pushed with all my might, might i didnt even know I had and out came the head, grabbed a breath and out came the body. And there went my vagina... bye bye vagina. I had a 2nd degree tear, aka, to the anus, awesome. 30 minutes of stitching. I was sooo not prepared for the pain that I would experience for the next 3-4 months. My baby is now 5 months and there is a ton of scar tissue down there. It just sucks. We have DTD about 3x , starting at maybe 8 weeks pp. But I hate my vagina. Its stiff and everything hurts. I feel sooo unsexy now. its really crappy. plus im about 30 lbs overweight, which I really really hate.... even though DH is still way bigger, I use to be the tiny one!
Anywho, yeah, Im not sure if things will ever be "normal" again. But probably everyone says that afterward. I have hears of women going to physical therapy for this "issue." I thought about it. But Im just too shy to go to a dr to "work" on my vagina...
on the plus side, breastfeeding is going awesome and my older daughter isnt jealous at all of her new brother! Plus I sleep the whole night with my little guy-- and he just started napping during the day too!! so life isnt horrible... just my vagina is.
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