So Sad

[casemnor]

I just learned that my OB, the OB that I love
...that I consider my friend as much as my doctor
...who delivered my two girls and laughed with me over the pregnancy foibles
...who made me comfortable about all the ups and downs that come with pregnancy....

....the one that is younger than me, with twin babies turning two in two weeks....

....the human being that first held my children and told me how beautiful they were

The OB I saw less than two weeks ago and joked with me about birthcontrol and how she predicted I'd have another child despite my protests....was found dead by her husband on the shower floor two days ago.

I can't even articulate how sad I am.

[Maluhia]

I am so very sorry for your loss ... please consider writing your wonderful memories of her for her children to have someday.

[TaraRae82]

OMG. I'm so sorry to hear this. What a shock for her family. I'll pray for them.

[feminist~mama]

I'm sorry too- I think writing down your memories for her children and husband is a lovely idea!

[trimestersdoula]

OMGoodness. I am so sorry for your loss. I will be thinking of you and her precious family. I have to echo the other posters about writing down your memories to give to her children when they are older. I think that is a fantastic idea.

[Amber Lion]

Wow, what a shock! Sorry for your and her family's loss.

[birthdancedoula]

[casemnor]

Thanks everyone. It really has hit me hard. I keep looking at my girls and feel sick to my stomach thinking of the two little babies who will be asking after their mama to no avail. Oh, and thinking of her husband and how he must be feeling just slays me. She and I often joked that our husbands should get together for playdates as they were both the stay at home parent...what will he do now?

and I keep thinking shallow thoughts for my own convenience....like how I don't want to have another child if she's not he one delivering...and who am I going to ask about the pros and cons of different birth control methods...espcially since she knew me and my preferences so well....

I just can't stand the thought that she never saw it coming...and then I think...what if it were me that happened to? Who would clean up my "mess"...who would remind my children how much I loved them....who would tell them stories of the silly things I did/knew....

It just seems so unfair.

[AngelBee]

Not in your DDC, but

I am so sorry

That is horrible

[Lemon Juice]

Mama, I am so sorry. That is so sad and I will keep her family in my thoughts and her sweet twin babes.

much love and light to you :

[farmerjess]

I am so sorry for your loss. Those poor little girls. If you don't mind sharing, what happened to her?

[jlbaby]

oh casemnor, how devestating. i am so very sorry to hear it....what a horrible tragedy. i will be thinking of you, her family, and all the other families she has touched. how awfully sad!

[casemnor]

I don't think they know yet what happened. Which makes me even more sad... it reminds me that things like that can happen with no warning.

Just two weeks ago she and I were chatting about her having another child. She had a difficult IVF twin pregnancy (including bleeding, gall stones, GD, pre term labor and PROM); and was laughing about how she would have thought she were crazy to want another pregnancy had she been her own doctor.

Sigh.

I am going to call her nurses on Monday and see if I can find out when the memorial is.

[Faerieshadow]

I'm so sorry. I'll be thinking of her family.