Originally Posted by Mal85
So, I had my moment of freak-out the other night. I hadn't slept well at all the night before and had to go to school at night to watch a concert for my music class after I got off work. I was utterly exhausted by the time I got home, which was close to 10 pm and still had to finish my homework. It struck me that I am taking 18 credit hours next semester, having a baby right in the middle of the semester. I have to take this many hours though. I finish and graduate in May and I just have to push my way through one more semester and I'm done and I'll have my degree.
It also struck me that I am having my baby end of February/early March and starting my in-home business in May without even taking a week off between that and graduation. I was definitely feeling overwhelmed in my exhaustion.
This led to the thought that I am having a baby, period. We're the first of our group of friends to have a baby so I just feel like this changes everything. I was thinking, I can handle having a baby and even a toddler. I've worked with kids for years and that infants and toddlers have always been my forte. But I remembered that I am not just going to have a baby. I am going to have a 10 year old. I am going to have a 15 year old. I am going to have a 30 year old daughter. That freaked me out a bit. I don't like 15 year old girls and I am going to have one of my own living in my house.
I got a good night's sleep and felt better when I woke up in the morning. Taking it one stage at a time, starting with the baby part. Which I totally look forward to. The rest will come, as well as more babies hopefully!
Ha! I have a teen girl right now and really it is not bad...actually there are a ton of things I love about it! We can have great talks about politics, books, boys etc. You can see glimpses of the person she is becoming! She has attitude for sure and she makes some pretty stupid choices sometimes but hey...that' s what teens do! For the most part, I enjoy her as much now as I did when she was small!
I'm 30 weeks I think...I keep losing track! I have a super buys week coming up next week, something going on every night Monday-Monday! Then...nothing, Dh and I also have 2 weeks off from work (no money either but hey, what can you do...) and both school kids are off as well...
I think we will get very spoiled not having to drive all over the place for two weeks!