Queer TTC December 2008 - Page 9

[FtMPapa]

So sorry to have to welcome you back so soon, Miss Scarlett. I wish you health and healing.



AFM...first micro signs of EWCM this afternoon. Time to drink up the green tea and grapefruit juice! Bring it on, round 4!

Raene - I'll be 28 this month. I would love to have twins, and it's a distinct possibility. Fraternal twins run in my family, and I've always had two follicles, even on unmedicated cycles, where I've been monitored. Always.

Of course, as a single parent, twins would be even more challenging. But that decision to have a second child as a single parent by choice (and risk twins the second time, for a total of 3 kids) is even harder to make, from what I've seen.

I absolutely want more than one child, so if I don't have twins, or even if I do, and if I don't decide to go for one more pregnancy, or even if I do, my plan is to adopt an older child (but younger than my youngest) once my youngest is 8 or so. I feel a calling to having three kids. I don't know why. And this is new in the past few months. I originally wanted one, then one by birth, one by adoption, and now I think birthing one or twins and adopting two more is what is going to happen.

[indigoscot]

miss scarlet, so sorry for your loss.

raene, i'm 39, i was 37 when i gave birth to our son. my dp is 32. hence the reason why i went first!

g

[Raene]

I'm thinking about all of you and sending out good thoughts.

I'll take a test tomorrow morning. I dreamed last night that my test FINALLY gave a BFP. I hope it's a realistic dream!

Happy Monday, Everyone!

[megincl]

Hi Folks,

Katie finally started her miscarriage bleeding yesterday. We found out there was no heartbeat three weeks ago, so I'm SO glad that we're finally being able to move on to the next stage of things, so to speak. It was so bizarre, but we both were excited when she started bleeding. Weird.

Hopefully it won't be hard, too heavy, or painful. And then we can entertain our next steps. I'm ready to bring some closure to this stage of things.

be well all,
megin

[Raene]

I'm so sorry, Megin. Peaceful and healing thoughts are with you.

[smartycat]

Megin and Katie, may this transition in your journey be a peaceful one. Much love and hugs sent your way today.

[carmen358]

Megin, I'm sorry for your loss but I'm glad you are finally able to start moving forward. I hope the m/c is as comfortable as possible for your dp.

[carmen358]

My temp took a nose dive this morning and I had a BFN on the preg test. af hasn't started but I fully expect it tonight or tomorrow. *sigh*

I am currently comforting myself with superficial thoughts about being able to dye my hair and have a glass of wine over the holidays. Hey, I gotta hold on to something.

On to 2009! Please move me to waiting to O.

Oh, and Raene, I turned 38 two weeks ago.

[FtMPapa]

M, K, & Q - I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I can't imagine how difficult it must be.

[FtMPapa]

Carmen - sorry about the BFN.

[wazzmum]

Hi Everyone,

First to answer the age question, my DP (who was insem'd) is 34 (almost 35) and I am 29. I plan on carrying the next baby:-)

raene - i hope you get the bfp you are waiting for!

carmen - sorry about your bfn. i hope 2009 brings you a bfp!

indigoscott - good luck w/ your DP's insem! when are you doing it? we are thinking about acupuncture too if this try doesn't work. hope it works for you!

ftmpapa - good luck with your insems!!!

miss scarlett - i'm sorry about your loss:-( i hope you can continue your process in early 2009.

megincl - sorry to hear about your dp's miscarriage. best of luck in whatever you decide your next steps are.

astropeep - we'll be testing around the same time! we aren't sure we really want to test on christmas day though so we may just wait.

did any of you tell people when you began the ttc journey? we weren't planning on it but then wanted to share our excitement w/ our families and a few close friends. we're also working on a blog that we'll share soon!

is anyone from the dc area? i'm actually from mass but will be w/ dp's entire filipino side of her family for christmas (near dc)!!

have any of you ever met anyone from this board in person? just curious!

happy testing, waiting and continuing your journeys.

[Raene]

I've never met anyone on the board, no, but I've seen people I know post on the board But not this particular section. I only know of one set of gay moms in my area and they have triplets who are my daughter's age.

It would be fun to meet others on the board, though

[Twylightdove]

I just got a bfn and started spotting today.

I'm taking a break from the boards but not from ttc. Not sure where were the current/future threadkeeper will want to list me for that. I may stop in every once in awhile but I won't be updating whether I'm inseming or in my tww or what have you. I will, however, return if I ever get another of those elusive bfps.

After a little over two years of ttc I think I need to redirect some of my obsessive behavior surrounding trying. So I'm going to rediscover my life that I kind of set on the back burner, expecting that I'd have a kid sometime after the first year of ttc. We will be continuing with our long-distance donor and continuing inseming every month. However, when I'm not dealing directly with inseming I plan on pretty much ignoring that I'm ttc. I just need a mental break, ya know?

Feel free to PM me if you have a question you think I'd have insight on or want to chat individually.

Good luck to everyone! May 2009 bring all of us was we are so doggedly pursuing.

[indigoscot]

wazzmum, we'll insem on friday and saturday if everything looks good on thursday. dp's ovaries are grumpy/twingy which we hope means good follicle growth. we used acupuncture on our second try with me, and it worked, so we are definitely believers in it.

my dp is 1/2 filipino!!!

g

[FtMPapa]

gonna miss you around here, Twylightdove, but I'm glad you're doing what is healthy for you.

It's such a complicated balance.

[Miss Scarlett]

Waiting game...again

Back to the waiting game. Luckily we still have two donor vials in storage and there will be another release early Feb. We are going to shoot for February to try again (basically because I have no idea where my cycle is now.) I suppose if I can have a full healthy cycle end of december we might try late January.

Patience is not a virtue I am particularly fond of, or good at, but I am learning. Its just so incredibly disappointing at this point. I feel a little like Ive been mugged.

Here's hoping for peace of mind and flying time.

[Miss Scarlett]

an aside

So I suppose I am officially "waiting to be ready" again.

Things Im scared of now (no more happy not knowing)

A) I have no idea where my cycle is
B) It was SO easy the first time, how can I possible expect to get pregnant so fast next time
C) What if we do it all over again with the same outcome
D) Will I be able to enjoy a healthy pregnancy over the fears of m/c again?

(This will be my last m/c post...I WILL be positive and concentrating on the next healthy one here after)

[erthe_mama]

Originally Posted by Raene

Is anyone else planning either a homebirth or using HypnoBirthing? I have a great morning sickness script if anyone wants it for later use. I find it pretty helpful.

I am planning both. (If I can find a hypnobirth instructor around here...) Even though I didn't have any morning sickness with my first pregnancy, they say every one is different, so I'd love to have a copy of the script, thanks! My last one was a water labour... Maybe I'll have a water birth next time around. I also would have liked to UC, but dp would totally freak and it wouldn't be much fun for either of us.

[Raene]

Bfn

Had another BFN this morning. It's a slap in the face after feeling so nauseous, sore breasts, swollen abdomen, etc. I wonder if it's still too early, even though I missed my period Monday. I made an appt for a doctor's appt today and I'm going to beg for a blood test. I don't know what else to do b/c my period's not usually late and with these symptoms...arg.

I am starting to feel like I'm crazy or something! Dr's appt is at 11:30. A regular family doctor can do these blood tests right? I know they have a lab there. I know little about doctors as I tend not to go.

[wazzmum]

raene - sorry about your bfn. what DPO are you on? good luck at the doctor.

this tww is hard!! i am so curious. so many people have advised not to get our hopes up but it is impossible!! we're trying to be zen about it because we realize that we may need some time for this journey. i have hope that dp is some sort of super fertile baby maker!!

what DPO do you typically start testing on? two wks post insem is christmas and we don't want to test on christmas. we are discussing testing early or just waiting until AF or a few days after christmas.

my parents emailed dp's parents expressing happiness for the prospect of a grandchild. i thought that was very sweet especially since i am not the one carrying and dp's parents already have g'kids.

as emotionally draining this process can be, sticking together and supporting each other is extremely beneficial. i feel it and i haven't been on the boards for very long.: