Still extremely nervous :(

[MaerynPearl]

It doesn't help that my MC was due August 19th and this time I'm due August 20th...

or that my constipation has me cramping (very much not af-like but any cramping bothers my poor mind.)

And that my BFPs were both TLPs (tiny little positives) so that I'm STILL afraid I was just seeing things...

This isn't even my first baby, it's my fourth pregnancy.... but I guess these nerves never go away right?

Anyone else feeling this way or are you all still on the "OMG IM PREGNANT!" high?

I haven't even missed AF yet or had a doctors confirmation, maybe I'll feel better after that?



I think... really... what I need to do is scrape together the money for a digital test huh?

[mama*pisces]

I'm not so much on a pregnancy high, but i think it's because I've been getting sick ever since the day of my bfp.:

Have you ever used the dollar store tests? They seem to be accurate for most people, and not as pricey as digitals. When is AF due? And how soon can you make a doc appt? I think that may be what will really put your fears to rest.

mama - it'll be ok!!

[MaerynPearl]

The dollar tree tests are the ones I got my positives on...

I go to the doctor wednesday, she'll give me a blood test I'm sure if my pee test is neg... she trusts me like that if I say I got two pos

Actually i sorta go three but the third was tonight, faint, on an equate plus/minus my newly pregnant friend had leftover AND it disappeared after a while.... so I cant comfort myself by re-looking at it.

[mama*pisces]

Well, Wednesday's not too far off at least... hang in there mama!

[MaerynPearl]

I'm just glad I took Wednesday off work today, I have an appointment at the ENT for DD in the morning then my appointment with my FP in the afternoon... it's supposed to be about the depression meds I'm taking and the slight allergic reaction to them I'm having (just itching and a couple hives, benedryl fixes it)... as well as my yearly pap.

But my FP... she's awesome... I can't imagine going to a hospital or doctor other than her and the hospital she works with. I had a different doctor deliver my daughter but only because my FP got pregnant the same week i did!

So yeah, I dont go to an OB/GYN... just a good old fashioned family practitioner... but the womans a genius in my not so humble opinion. She always wants to push natural before synthetic/tech unless absolutely necessary (like with my postpartum-thyroiditis... that goes straight to synthyroid... no messing around)

And in addition to that... she actually cares about her patients... I almost made her cry one of the first times I went to her because she cleaned out a huge chunk of wax i had stuck in my ear (gross right?) and unfortunately got a bit of skin with it, making me bleed.

I was her first "bloody" patient after getting her own office lol.

If you can't tell, I like to type a lot. LOL

[MaerynPearl]

Seeing this made me feel a little better.

Since her 9dpo is about as dark as this

and my test this morning is about as dark as her 10dpo...

it definitely makes me feel a little more comforted.