Hi Everyone, this is Roelof, Nursing Mothers dh, I just signed up today so Anna could respond to this thread that touched her so much. I am letting Anna speak on my new account. I've always been partial to Mothering Dot Com. thru the years she was active here and well remember the loving responses you gave her to help her (and I) through a very difficult time. Here she is:
Dear Friends, this is Anna, Nursing Mother a friend here told me about this thread and I wanted to respond as I know that last year there was a similar thread that I couldn't respond to.
I'm so touched that some of you still remember the tragic death of my son 5 years ago. I still actually have many of the threads (printed out) that were started back then to give me comfort. Occasionally I read them. A couple of years ago circumstances required that I needed to leave as Nursing Mother that that is why "she" disappeared.
Anyway I want to let you all know that I am doing very well as well as my family. Many of you know I am a woman of faith and I can truly say that is what has carried me though these years and why I can say I am wonderfully happy and content with my life. God has healed the pain and given me a joy that reaches beyond grief and loss. Do I still cry and feel sad and miss him?...YES and double YES....but the raw emotion is gone…. I know in God’s sovereignty he has woven this sorrow into our lives for a purpose and a reason maybe even yet not know.
My daughter (who was 17 at the time) married a couple of months ago and is Happily married doing well. My other two sons are 17 and 19 now and miss their brother, but are doing well and my dear sweet little Esther is 10, who is most vocal about missing her brother and cries occasionally is also doing well. Our family and my marriage is as strong as ever which I am thankful for, as any child's death puts strain on a family and marriage...and I know many of you have experienced that yourselves.
I have been doing (giving) some grief counseling at our church and God has brought several grieving mothers and families into my life that I may help and encourage them in their time of sorrow and to give them hope.
I still value my Mothering quilt so much!! I look at it often and tears come to my eyes as I think of the dear women who put their hearts and souls into creating this for me. The individual squares are unique and special. Thank you all again who participated in that. It is something I will treasure forever.
Bless you all for your kind and tender words. I will never forget any of you...even though I do see a lot of changed usernames as I did mine too
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May God grant you all a special blessing. Love, Nursing Mother
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Thank you for Blessing us with your update, NM.
