Worn out with waiting

[mom2annika]

Here's a disclaimer: Congrats to all the new mamas. Really truly. I feel like a total hypocrite typing, "Congratulations," over and over on all these announcement threads and NOT feeling excited. Sorry I'm not feeling it...I MEAN it, but I'm bummed.

I'm so tired of waiting for my babe to decide it's time. Even that lady in Arkansas that wasn't due til New Year's (Mrs. Duggar) already had her 18th baby! Waaah no fair! I've been sick as a dog the entire time, and the nausea and vomiting hasn't stopped yet. I'm so ready to be done. We've been watching anxiously for over a month, since we had our first false alarm on Thanksgiving Day. (That turned out to be from dehydration.) The extended family (both sides) is gonna be here Monday---I had so hoped to have at least a week to be a little family of four before everyone else showed up for Christmas. EDD was 12-15, Monday.

I have tried all the natural induction tips, but apparently baby girl is having none of it. We did a NST yesterday...everything is "perfect" and "ready to go anytime." My MW offered to try amniotomy if I wanted, but I know that starts the clock and it's usually NOT an easy labor after that. Besides, I don't want to do that over the weekend (just in case...hospital staffing levels over the weekend are iffy)---and if we wait til Monday, then the fam will be here (which could be good or bad--heh). MW reccommended not waiting later than Monday cause Wednesday is Christmas Eve..argh.

I need a hug.

[jrabbit]

[bronxmom]

I so hear you. I don't think I"m in as much physical discomfort, but I really thought I'd go early and now I'm 3 or 4 days overdue (either due Tues or Wed). In reality, that's not THAT far over but the whole holidays thing makes it hard to be patient. This is the last weekend before xmas and I really wanted the baby to come before the end of the weekend. Now people have started asking me every day what's up and we have EVERYTHING done. I mean the xmas presents are wrapped and under the tree; I'm done with all my work stuff; everyone's ready for the baby; house is clean and gorgeous; baby perfectly positioned and low; birth tub ready to go; baby room all set up; etc, etc. I feel all dressed up and ready to go as it were. I was fine until Monday or Tuesday and it's gotten harder each day since. I think I've done a great job of keeping busy/distracted/social - gone to movies, gone bowling, walked, did presents, holiday party tonight if still not in labor, dinner with friends, etc - but still I"m starting to get bored and anxious.

I AM READY. Come on out baby.

However, we're really not that far over so I guess we should stay patient and focused on the fact that baby is healthy and will come when it's ready. But sooo much easier said than done.

[jrabbit]

you're not overdue til 42 weeks .......

[gretae]

I know how you feel. We have no idea when this baby was conceived and have a very estimated due date of the 28th but I am jealous and actually angry that I am still pregnant and that I have zero support from anyone. It's just me and my two girls at home and nobody else much cares. I am so uncomfortable it's unreal, I can't sleep, have horrible heartburn, and I hurt all the time. I am trying very hard to make peace with my situation but it's not going very well. It's like everyone else who doesn't have as much stress has their babies early and the ones with all the stress wait and wait and wait for it to be over. Sorry to be so negative. I've had it and with everyday that goes by I get more and more angry. I don't know what to do.

[mom2annika]

to gretae.

[Shelbyscout]

to Gretae and Mom2annika. I know just how you feel. I had a complete breakdown after my appointment on Thursday because I'm 0cm dilated despite having contractions for a week. I literally sobbed all day. It's a long story, but due to my bipolar disorder and some other issues (PSD, etc.) after some very long conversations with dh, the doctor, and the nurse, we've scheduled an induction for Monday morning.

I'm sending you both tons of strength. I never knew this part would be so hard.

[girlfromthefuture]

Sending a hug, mama. Also sending peaceful vibes. Hang in there! You're not alone.....

[phatchristy]

I so want to send you a hug. I remember how it feels as my first three were all post dates, the first around 41.5 weeks, then the second and third around 40.5. So, on every birth group/due date list I always got used to being the one who everyone asked...'did you have your baby yet?' Sigh. It was hard. But, I would take my time away from them, do my best to create a super peaceful and serenely spiritual place where I could be at peace where I was and enjoy the last moments of my pregnancy. I hope that you can find that special place too.

[Starfish11]

I imagine that it's very very hard to read all of the birth announcements. I hope you mamas have your babies in your arms soon

[bronxmom]

Actually, I LOVE reading the birth announcements, and especially the birth stories. Please keep them coming - more details the better. It's great to hear first hand accounts about the lead up, how it started, the labor, etc and it's exciting to see everyone having their babies.

I also like though having the other still pregnant mamas to commiserate and wait with. Who else is still out there?

[jrabbit]

I don't mind reading the birth announcements, but I'm a little bored these days without so many preg mamas to chat with. Seems like everyone is either desperately waiting for a baby or busy with an actual baby ... maybe I'll migrate to January? Actually, that might not be a bad idea since now I *want* the baby to wait !

--janis

[bmcneal]

to you, Gretae and Mom2annika

I *was* ready for LO to be born, but on Thursday, I got *another* yeast infection. so now I've told LO he needs to wait until after Christmas. I don't *really* want him to wait, but I don't want him sick, either.

[mom2annika]

No, really I like seeing the announcements too. I'm just jealous! LOL

But having contractions now, so maybe...

[LilacMama]

Oh man....
I'm not even to my due date yet (12/30) and I've had it! I've managed to keep myself emotionally positive throughout pregnancy but something just clicked at 38 weeks and I was like..."Oookay, I'm done now."

I'm trying so hard to accept that baby will come when she's ready, but I'm working full-time now as a nurse and I'm very physically uncomfortable (as I'm sure you well-know!) and I'm just...done. I'm getting depressed. I know it's ridiculous because, relatively, it's going to be over SO SOON but I just lost a good sense of perspective.

So yes, you have my utmost sympathy.

[CAKJNH]

My due date is 12/25...which I thought was great originally. But this is baby #4 for us and having three girls who are extremely excited for Christmas, etc - I'm worn out anyway!

I was on bedrest til 37 weeks trying to keep the little man in, but now he won't come out. said the same thing when I read online about Michelle Duggar "that's sooo not fair! She wasn't even due until Jan 1st!" lol. I'm glad she had a healthy baby - but I want mine now, too!

I'm tired, I'm cranky. I've tried to keep everything in perspective, relax etc. But - as I've told my MW for the last 3 weeks - I'M SOO DONE! I haven't slept in ages, I keep pulling muscles when I move at night, can't sleep in my own bed (have to sleep in my recliner just to breathe!)...the list goes on.

I do have to say this is our first son and it's been totally different. I had picture perfect pregnancies and l&d's with my first 2, my youngest daughter was a little tougher (she was a bit bigger, too!). But this one is just beating on me! I was sick for about 5 mos, I wound up on bedrest due to a very "reactive" uterus, an abruption, I've had swelling etc. This is NOTHING like I am used to! Heartburn - I've never had heartburn til I got pregnant with this one! I feel like I've never done this before, lol! I try to laugh and enjoy it as this is my last pregnancy ( This is pregnancy #6 and my body has obviously had enough!)

Sorry if this all sounds whiny - not trying to. But at least people here listen! I will say that DH and DD (7) are very good at helping and listening. But it's not really the same since they really can't relate. My 7 yr old can tell though, when I'm aggravated - she just walks over and hugs my belly and says "Jonathan, you REALLY need to come out now! Mommy's tired" lol. I love her!

[lemonapple]

I'm right there with you, and I'm not even at my due date yet...Dec. 29th. Everything is ready for this little one to arrive, but I think he might have plans to go over :-)

I do enjoy reading about all the births though...they're fascinating to read, and I know they help me feel more sure of my own upcoming birth experience.

[odenata]

I'm at week 41 now. I'm thinking we will schedule an induction for the 29th (I'll be 42 + 2 then) if everything looks favorable and baby isn't here by then. I don't have insurance for January, so I really need baby to come this month.

I really hope he comes this week and we don't have to induce. I thought for sure he would be born by now.

[gretae]

Thank you everyone for your support and I'm glad, although not glad for you all, that I'm not the only one feeling miserable. Today was a little better day, still a little cranky and depressed but the rage I was feeling the last couple days wasn't as strong and I actually refrained from crying today. That was quite an acheivement. It would have been hard in the snow to have her come this weekend anyway, I might have been all alone and that would have not been a good thing. I need to work on meditation and maybe some visualization may help. Peace and blessings to each of you..........

[mom2annika]

I hear ya. I really hope mine comes tonight/overnight. The fam is coming tomorrow for Christmas (both sides). But more than that, I am tired and sore. It would be nice to have jobs for the fam, KWIM?

The MWs say everything looks favorable...they said that Friday...they're offering to try amniotomy and then I could still have my waterbirth. I didn't want to consider it over the weekend. <<sigh>> I'm with odenata...I thought sure the babe would be here by now.

To the other waiting mamas: whine all you want! I totally understand. to y'all too.