Seriously. As if this pregnancy hasn't been painful enough already!
Christmas night I started having ctx... lasting about a minute and THREE minutes apart! I was soooo sure that was it, we got everything out and filled up the tub and everything. Called the midwife, got checked, was at 70%, 2cm, and -1 baby position.
Two hours later they slowed down, then stopped. We DTD cause my water hadn't broken yet. They started up again, harder. Once again, I thought that was it... nope. I made the mistake of trying to sleep and woke up completely ctx-free.
Yesterday, had a day without DD, so we DTD, walked-walked-walked, RRL tea, all that jazz. Nothing.
Today. Day to myself, DD's not here, DH is at work. I thought maybe being alone would trigger things. Again, walking, RRL, I even pumped a little for the stimulation. I'm still ctx'ing every once in a while (painful, tight, low ctx) but nothing's happening. Had some bloody streaky mucus last night in the shower... I got so excited.
Now I'm just... done. I hurt, I'm emotionaly drained, I feel like I'm beating a dead horse. DD comes back tonight from an overnight at grandma and grandpas. I haven't done crap today... Except pee, a LOT, and whimper and whine to myself. I'm only 38 weeks but I feel so freaking huge and just... done.
I know it's normal for a lot of women to feel so "done" but man, seriously... I just want to curl up and cry.
Sigh. Off to walk a few more laps around the house... it's 60 degrees here in central Ohio, can you believe that? December 27th and it's a balmy 60 degrees with a nice breeze.
Christmas night I started having ctx... lasting about a minute and THREE minutes apart! I was soooo sure that was it, we got everything out and filled up the tub and everything. Called the midwife, got checked, was at 70%, 2cm, and -1 baby position.
Two hours later they slowed down, then stopped. We DTD cause my water hadn't broken yet. They started up again, harder. Once again, I thought that was it... nope. I made the mistake of trying to sleep and woke up completely ctx-free.
Yesterday, had a day without DD, so we DTD, walked-walked-walked, RRL tea, all that jazz. Nothing.
Today. Day to myself, DD's not here, DH is at work. I thought maybe being alone would trigger things. Again, walking, RRL, I even pumped a little for the stimulation. I'm still ctx'ing every once in a while (painful, tight, low ctx) but nothing's happening. Had some bloody streaky mucus last night in the shower... I got so excited.

Now I'm just... done. I hurt, I'm emotionaly drained, I feel like I'm beating a dead horse. DD comes back tonight from an overnight at grandma and grandpas. I haven't done crap today... Except pee, a LOT, and whimper and whine to myself. I'm only 38 weeks but I feel so freaking huge and just... done.
I know it's normal for a lot of women to feel so "done" but man, seriously... I just want to curl up and cry.Sigh. Off to walk a few more laps around the house... it's 60 degrees here in central Ohio, can you believe that? December 27th and it's a balmy 60 degrees with a nice breeze.







I know this feeling and am fighting it too. Hopefully our babes come soon.
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