Why are my moods so up and down - can I still put this down to post-birth hormones, or lack of sleep, or just the adjustment to having a baby? Today my mood varied from really happy to utterly despairing, wishing I hadn't had a baby at all : (much as I love her). Then happy again, then miserable, and now am fairly happy. When I'm feeling miserable it all just seems impossibly hard and I don't think I can do it, I have to force myself to look after her and I think that I reget having had a baby at all, I wonder if it was a terrible mistake but it's too late to take it back. I dream about leaving the house, getting in the car and driving away. I wouldn't actually do this and I do love her to bits but sometimes I feel so exhausted and drained. I wish I could be a good mum all of the time instead of feeling like this sometimes . I think that getting out of the house every day would help (although I do go out or have someone visit probably 2 or 3 out of 5 weekdays) but I'm so tired and getting dressed etc is so difficult with a baby.
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1/5/09 at 6:32pm