I'm SO discouraged!

[Super~Single~Mama]

Today is my due date, and I'm uncomfortable as all he** - NOTHING I do is comfy or pain free, even laying down. The baby has only dropped a TINY little bit, and is still very much under my ribs - whether I'm sitting or lying down. I'm exhausted - physically and emotionally and my parents are coming a week and a half and are staying in the downstairs apartment while they are here. (my boyfriend and I rent the upstairs apartment of a house, the downstairs one is vacant and our landlord is being nice enough to let my parents stay there for cheap while they are here)

I had an appointment with the midwife today, and she checked my cervix which is LONG AND CLOSED and posterior!!!! and SO high up she could hardly reach it. There is no sign of a baby showing up anytime soon at all. I've been having braxton hicks all the time, everyday all day, and they really pick up at night - but they're doing NOTHING - even if I was slightly open that would be better than completely closed!! And, I start school again on the 20th (42 weeks), and at 42 weeks they start talking about inducing, but its my call and we don't have to (I won't if theres no change to my cervix), but I really don't know what I'm going to do if I have to start my spring semester pregnant...I'm supposed to have a baby by then!!

I'm just so discouraged...and I know that since I'm a FTM I should expect to go over, but I just really want this to be over. And of course my boyfriend is no help at all - his response is that as long as the baby is fine it doesn't matter when it comes, we'll work out all those details later. He's right - but when I'm frustrated and discouraged I really don't want a lecture about it!

Sorry about the vent...and congrats to all the January moms who have their baby's already!

[mamajody]

It can be so hard to wait it out the last few days/weeks. Just remember, your dilation means NOTHING unless you are in active labor. walked around at 3-4cm for WEEKS with my first, literally expecting I would deliver at any moment. You could go very fast and all at once when you do go into active labor. Deep breaths, and trust your body.

[racidoodle]

don't be discouraged by your exam! i was "high and tight" the day before my water broke last time. i know it feels like you'll be pregnant FORVER, but i promise, you won't! hang in there!

[quietserena]

can you go swimming anywhere?

I hope your discouraged feeling is a sign of impending labor!

[MeadowAndColtsMama]

I know how you feel. 42 weeks with my first, but he was only 7 pounds 8 ounces so I think my dates were wrong. Waiting sucks! You could talk to your ob or mw about starting cohoshes and castor oil possibly? With my second I did cohoshes the last week and evening primrose oil and she did come on her edd. I'm going nuts right now myself and I'm only 37 weeks tomorrow! Hang in there. Baby just needs a little time to cook. It could be tomorrow! And you'll have your little one!

[ainh]

With my first pregnancy I was high and closed and the midwife couldn't reach my cervix for the life of her at 40 weeks...then I went into labor naturally a few days later and had a great vaginal birth (long and somewhat slow progress, but it was steady and went well).

[jrabbit]

you can't stay pregnant forever!





or so they tell me ........
--janis

[Dandelionkid]

I'm glad I am not alone!! I am not EDD until Jan 13 but I have never felt this uncomfortable (emotionally, or otherwise) with other pregnancies. I feel like I am on an extension of Christmas holidays- hovering in the space between real-life and extended "nothingness". I feel half-real. It is a strange sensation.

[Super~Single~Mama]

Originally Posted by Dandelionkid

I'm glad I am not alone!! I am not EDD until Jan 13 but I have never felt this uncomfortable (emotionally, or otherwise) with other pregnancies. I feel like I am on an extension of Christmas holidays- hovering in the space between real-life and extended "nothingness". I feel half-real. It is a strange sensation.

The 13th is my mom's b-day, and my dad is hoping that missing my EDD is a sign that baby will come on the 13th....I REALLY hope baby comes before then!!

[jr'smom]

Originally Posted by racidoodle

don't be discouraged by your exam! i was "high and tight" the day before my water broke last time. i know it feels like you'll be pregnant FORVER, but i promise, you won't! hang in there!

Me too! Twice! And I know what it's like to feel that way on your EDD. But it might be right around the corner. I was two days late with both. Everything can change very quickly and your body and baby know exactly when your precious baby should be born.
(Having said that, I'm going crazy already wondering when will baby ever come and praying "please don't let me be 'late' again." ... And I'm only 39+1, but whose counting?)