I'm planning a HBAC around my due date of April 10th. This will be 2nd child.
First birth probably could've been normal if I was left alone, but, alas my doctor & hospital team were quite obsessed with time. I was almost 2 wks late, my water broke w/ meconium so after 12 hours they gave me pitocin, after a few hours laboring I was tired and out of control (I didn't realize what pitocin did to intensify contractions, I just wanted to go natural), I finally made it through transition and pushed for 3 hours, but was only allowed to push (on my back) every other contraction, then time was up and they were worried about stressing. So...I got a perfect little c-section girl, but have been really bothered and grieved by the experience.
I live in a rural area, and always assumed if we had another I'd go to a midwife with hospital priviledges in Durango, 2 hours away. But they said they were refusing VBACS. As did the midwives practice in Grand Junction, 3 hours away. I was broken hearted, horrified, and pissed. So after much soul searching, I found a great midwife and decided to make it happen on my own. My husband did not like the homebirth idea at all because he's terrified of medical emergencies. But I convinced him I had to do it, both my midwife and doula are EMTs, I found a b&b with free-standing cabin 3 miles from the hospital (an hour away) that has agreed to let me do it there, and am incredibly excited. He's still nervous and pessimistic I can do this, but I feel really great about things. I love my birth team, am a lot more knowledgeable and prepared, and figure if I can make it through pitocin contactions and hospital hysterics I can make it through anything. I have some concerns about my endurance, but feel equipped to let nature run its course. If it isn't meant to be, I'll find out, but I'm planning for a smooth natural HBAC!
If you made it this far, thanks for reading. It is nice to have a place to share and find support. And I think I may try to borrow or check out "Active Birth." Sounds like a great resource for confidence and comfort in labor.