Yay for all these homebirthin' mamas! We are planning our second homebirth for baby number three (#1 was induction, cascade of interventions, and cesarean #2 was an awesome water HBAC).
I keep going back and forth between how much outside involvement I want with my birth. I'm a midwifery student under two awesome midwives, so I know they are there for me if I want them. But do I? I know I want someone to stitch me if I tear significantly, to suck up the birth soup if I birth in the water, and to lend a hand if for some reason there are big complications (don't want to leave that up to Ian). Yet I keep feeling called to freebirth (unassisted). Especially when I think of being a little out of it after pushing out a baby and not being able to shoe away an over eager bulb syringe or Ian feeling displaced by other hands' presence. Rar, just keep going back and forth...
I also am not sure about my boys, whether I will ship them off or let them wander around. I've been so freaking irritable this pregnancy that I might need them to be gone, but a big part of me really wants them here.
Something tells me I will probably make most of these decisions in the moment. We'll see...
I keep going back and forth between how much outside involvement I want with my birth. I'm a midwifery student under two awesome midwives, so I know they are there for me if I want them. But do I? I know I want someone to stitch me if I tear significantly, to suck up the birth soup if I birth in the water, and to lend a hand if for some reason there are big complications (don't want to leave that up to Ian). Yet I keep feeling called to freebirth (unassisted). Especially when I think of being a little out of it after pushing out a baby and not being able to shoe away an over eager bulb syringe or Ian feeling displaced by other hands' presence. Rar, just keep going back and forth...
I also am not sure about my boys, whether I will ship them off or let them wander around. I've been so freaking irritable this pregnancy that I might need them to be gone, but a big part of me really wants them here.
Something tells me I will probably make most of these decisions in the moment. We'll see...




Is there anything that I am forgetting? 3rd baby and I am soooo laid back
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