Hello to a fellow T-dot resident, Butterfly_mommy!
AFWife: I'm sorry to hear you had an anxiety attack falling asleep the other night. That sucks! When I would have bedtime anxiety (falling asleep or awaking with panic) I'd do these cognitive behavioural worksheets while listening to classical music, light a candle, drink chamomile tea with honey, sniff lavendar... all those little things to help make me feel calmer. And the mantras: this will pass. Do you have a little ritual for yourself to help ground yourself? I know it's hard when you're used to your dh being there to help calm you. Gawd knows mine helped tons over the years.
This will pass.
Can you take anxiety meds while pregnant? Well certain SSRI's are good for both depression AND anxiety (like Zoloft, Prozac, etc) and you can take them while pregnant. Have you ever taken one of those before?
Carfreemama - our little family took a trip to Nova Scotia last summer -- it's so beautiful there!!!! Whereabouts are you? We were in Dartmouth and Halifax. Hoped to make it to Cape Breton and the Stan Rogers festival but the littlest dd wouldn't sit in the car without SCREAMING so we just stayed near Halifax instead and rode the ferry everyday.
I hear you on feeling like you should have accomplished so much by such and such age. But it's all b.s. you know? There are things that come up in life. When I look around me and see friends doing things I haven't been able to accomplish I ask myself, "Oh yeah, well did she grow up with xyz [abuse]? or have a mental health problem to deal with?" It takes some real acceptance and self-love to realize that yes, what you are struggling with is not your fault and it's difficult sometimes. Sometimes it sets you back. But you are not a bad person.
So geez, that counsellor sounds like she sucked. Why did she call CPS???
And now for my update....
Things have been okay here. Well, I'm struggling a bit now. We've been tweaking my meds and it's hard making changes with it. I've had some really crappy vivid dreams again (so morose, dark, gross, yuck) and I wake up feeling icky and that feeling lingers all day. We've decided to put my Prozac up a wee bit again (I'm stacking a bit of that on top of Wellbutrin - seems to be working well for me now). I can't wait to feel like I'm medicated to the right amound again.
I like it when I'm in that happy place. When my meds aren't high enough I feel low-self esteem, like I'm constantly doubting myself, like I'm not loveable and not good enough. On the right amount of meds I feel like I'm okay, life is good and I love myself. I can't believe it sometimes.
Okay, I'll stop here, didn't think this post would be so long. Mamas, can you just toss a few encouraging words my way? It's been really hard this last little while with the change in meds, people being sick in our house (incl. me), returning to work FT, etc etc etc. TIA