Oh for goodness' sake. So my mom comes up, after I haven't heard from her since Monday. And of course I've been fretting over this for days now, feeling alternately angry with her, and guilty for being such a "bad" daughter. Anyway, she walks in all smiles and sunshine and the world is a wonderful place.
I was stunned.
And at one point when she asked me how I was doing, I just started crying. Oh for the love of pete, I hate crying. I'm not a crier. But there I was crying. And I just said I was tired and felt like crap and walked away.
I honestly have no clue what to expect from her, but I am very thankful she didn't continue the manipulation thing today. I totally could not have handled it.
Second GBS came back negative.
While I have my own preferences in terms of astrological placements, I like to think that every individual chooses her own birth date and time, etc. That we know there are challenges we need to work on this life, and as such, we come into this existence with an understanding that we need those challenges.
So while one aspect may seem negative when examined on its own, there are oftentimes other aspects or placements (house or planetary) that can help balance that particular challenge. And sometimes not, but in that case, it's simply part of who we are.
In other words, I wouldn't try to NOT have the baby just because of what day/time it was or something. I might hope the baby comes on a particular day, but the bottom line is the baby will come when the baby comes. And that's precisely when she's meant to come. And I'm cool with that and though I may cross my fingers that it's on a certain day rather than another, but with full understanding that it's not up to me.