|I can't leave the relationship so I am trying to do whatever I can to make it better. I work hard at trying to do everything correctly, to not upset him, but it's not working out.|
and you will never be good enough by his standards. but believe me. you are just fine. and you will be great.
I suffered for a long time and tried being perfectly submissive, taking the blame for everything, putting my foot down, giving him freedom, reigning it in and then it started getting violent and then the whole thing blew up. and he was never half as bad as your husband sounds. GET OUT! you don't have to file for a divorce. you don't have to go crazy. just take a break until he gets a grip. take a break until you can think clearly and decide what to do. take a break while you pray about it and see what God wants. just take a break and make decisions later when you can look at this objectively.