I'm Gretchen, 26, and this is my second pregnancy. Actually, I'm fairly certain that I miscarried about 3 cycles ago, but it was a very early miscarriage (a 51 day cycle), so technically third I suppose. We'll see if this one sticks (dd is Oct.2 so I'm about 5 weeks).
We weren't actively ttc, but weren't actively trying to prevent, either. We had talked about ttc this winter sometime between Jan-March, so we accomplished things on the early end. We had planned to wait until my husband's temp job at UM hospital turned into a permanent position, but it hasn't yet. We expect it will in the near future. I work part time at a non profit and am planning on going into birth work--first a birth and post partum doula, and later a midwife.
We have a 21 mo. daughter. I've only had a few days to think about this pregnancy, but I feel a little ambivalent. My husband is nervous and talking about money (which sortof kills the romance for me), and although I was open to pregnancy, I feel like we weren't exactly on the same page. I think he wanted to wait a little longer, but didn't want to do anything to actively prevent, so that's a little uncomfortable and frustrating. I just want to feel like I'm not alone in welcoming this baby--I feel very detached at this point (and it's still way early so I think that's ok) and I think it's partly because I don't think he's excited. Or maybe I don't feel excited. I also feel a little sad, because I cherish my time with my daughter so much and, although I know I will love this baby just as much, I'm having a hard time imagining sharing time and feeling equally about another person. I'm pretty sure this is all normal and that in a few weeks, as things sink in, I will feel happy and accepting.
I've watched these forums since before I was pregnant with dd1, but have rarely posted. I feel like I want/need more support this time around, though, so here I am.