The February Infertility One Thread - Page 2

[crazyrunningmama]

Originally Posted by wtg4miracle

Nice to see you CRM. Are you stimming now?

I go on these boards cause I have no one to talk. I feel so alone and just want to be connected to others. I feel bad that I prolly driving everyone crazy here.

to you!!! Sounds like this is a really crazy making time. I hope you are taking care. It's good to have MDC, isn't it? I have phases where I post a ton, too (only 2 friends IRL know about our IF). That's what it's here for!

I have just started estrace for my FET, u/s check on the 13th with ET within a few days after that, hopefully.

Originally Posted by Wilum

I have been TTC for 3 years. Used clomid with natural cycles for many months, took some time off and have since had 4 failed rounds of clomid w/IUI, starting Follistim this month. Very nervous this will not work either. Hard for me to concentrate on anything and work with a lot of women, so one will be pregnant and when they deliver, another one pops up pregnant. NEVER ME!!!
WHY???

I know how you feel. Just wanted to say hello, welcome and like we always say on this board - hope your stay is short!

Originally Posted by by-the-lake

LibbyLou- I have a new user name.
CRM- Thinking of you

AFM- Seven days of BCP's, U/S next monday. AP again this Wed. Praying for no cysts!!!!

Backatcha!! Like the new name! I am doing okay, excited for this FET (and crossing fingers as it may be our last). Good luck on NO cysts!!

[DaisyMae08]

Not sure how many more we'll do with Letrozole. This time we only had one egg (last time was 2 and with Clomid it was 6 both months). It seems silly to take fertility drugs to end up with one egg...which I probably woud have on my own anyway. I have a follow-up appt. tomorrow to discuss the plan for Feb. in case this month is a BFN (which I'm pretty sure of...).

[Pookietooth]

Congratulations, Libbylou! ::::::

Well, the RE clinic called today to say that they are pushing out the ET to Tuesday, which is great news! Apparently a lot of them survived to three days old. They have prescribed Tranxene for me to take one hour before the ET, but it's optional. Anyone with any experience have anything to suggest about that? I hate to add even more drugs, but if it would help things, I would do it.

Can you change my synopsis to add that I'm in the middle of my IVF cycle and that my ET is 2/3/09?

[Becky8824]

Hi can you please add me to TTC#1 since 03/08. One round of clomid 50mg and IUI in January.

Thanks can't wait to hear all about the BFP!!!!

[songbird45]

Congratulations LibbyLou! I guess it takes a few months for threadkeeper's luck to kick in!

Four months after the BFP I still check this thread regularly, so it seems that IF is not something that really leaves you quickly.

[tomanygirls]

can I join?

TTC #4 since 11/07 - PCOS with Metformin,HSG, blocked tube, 1st round of clomid, canceled 1st IUI cause we only had one egg on blocked side.

I am so bummed that we will have to wait till next month to try again.

[Pookietooth]

Welcome tomanygirls. I have PCOS too. Clomid didn't work for me -- I've done 7 cycles with it and never a +. Turns out it thins my lining. Ditto with Femara, so injectables were really my only choice. I did two rounds of injectables w/IUIs last year - first one ended in a m/c, the other in a BFN. So this year I've moved on to IVF. Kind of wish I'd done it when I was younger (ds is the result of injectables with IUI when I actually had coverage for the meds and everything except for the actual egg retreival and embryo transfer -- which aren't cheap, but the total would have been less and had I frozen embies from then, I might have a three year old along with my nearly 6 year old).

[wtg4miracle]

Probably will not have a child after all of this!

I just got back from the surgeon. Not good news. I was under the impression they can remove the scar tissue etc. He kind of laughed at that idea and then he told me the best he could do is dilate the cervix. He said since I do get my period he can work from where that hole is (if he can find it). Nothing is guarentee.

After listening to him rambling on about all the risks involved with the lap I just started crying and told him ok we will do the suregery and left crying so hard. I told him this needs to be fixed so I can do IUI. If I can't get this fixed I can't get pregnant. I have good ovaries and sperm but no friggin way they can meet. I never heard anyone with this problem. Usually its ovarian reserve. Nope not me, stupid cervix. Anyone got an extra xervix laying around. I can't believe they do heart, kidney, bone marrow transplants but they can't make a f'in canal in my cervix.

I was wondering about surrogacy. I have to look into this. I can do IVF. They can take my eggs (via vagina) and take his sperm and grow them. Then give to a surrogate since they have no access to my cervix.

I am at work crying and crying. I will not afterall have my precious baby. Its so not looking good for me. I might just give it up and say forget it. Maybe die in my own sorrow. I might cancel the surgery if there is no chance of fixing it. I about done with this crap. DH will not have his child now.

[Julia'sMom]

Wtg
I'm so sorry to hear your news. I'll admit I haven't followed your whole story, so I'm not sure of everything. But, have you looked into gift or zift (with ivf). I believe it's hard to find an RE that does the procedure, but I believe they use laproscopic surgey to transfer the embryos to your tubes instead of thru the cervix to your uterus. I can't remember the details, but maybe it's worth a glance. Huge <<<HUGS>>> your way.

[LibbyLou]

Updated to here

Welcome Becky and tomanygirls! I hope your stay here is short.

wtg - I'm so sad to hear your news :

[by-the-lake]

Wgt- Sorry, I had to think about your devastating post awhile before I could reply. First, hugs to you. What an awful thing to hear. I am sorry you are experiencing every roadblock imaginable. I am going to suggest maybe switching gears on this whole cervix thing. This is what I see: You have ovaries that produce eggs. you have a uterus that seems fine. Your DH has sperm. Why can't you explore IVF with an abdomnial transfer. You seem to be close enough to NYC where that tehnology could be avaliable. If you do this and become pregnant, there is a proedure called a cerlage whih stitches your cervix closed. They do this in the 2nd trimester, when weight begins to be exerted on the cervix. I don't think this is the end for you. Consider checking into this. I really believe this is not the end for you. Please take are of yourself. Take all the time you need.

[crystal-mommy]

wtg first of all second, just take it one day @ a time. We all have a really bad habit of thinking the worst and drowing in a sense of doom. have your surgery, maybe they can or can't fix it. But @ least you will have tried, I can't imagine how devastating this is. But don't give up hope yet. I know easier said than done... we are here for you. Also, remember that Dr's are supposed to prepare you for the worst, he can't tell you "yeah i can fix this" and then if he can't he would be in a big mess, so they tell you the worst possible news first.


amf tomorrow is my RE appt, hopefully the weather cont. to cooperate. I haven't started AF, but feel like she is on her way.

[BellyBean]

Wtg, I am so sorry to hear your news today Please don't give up, I know it is easier said than done, but I believe you will get your baby. I would definitely do the surgery, it sounds like there is a possibility, and I agree they probably are giving "worst case". Then I would explore ZIFT and any other advanced IVF procedures. Finally surrogacy, your eggs, your DH's sperm, your baby. Please stay true to yourself and follow your heart to your dreams.

[DaisyMae08]

Congrats LibbyLou!!! ::: Somehow I missed your good news the first time around!

Wtg, I am so sorry to hear that your appointment did not go well. I agree with others who have suggested exploring other avenues. If they can get your eggs, you can have a biological child. Maybe look into the abdominal transfer? A surrogate might be worth exploring too. I can't imagine how hard this must be. I'm thinking about you.


As for me, follow up appt. today. I met with the nurse practitioner who is very nice, but for some reason holds up an egg (think chicken egg) when she talks about the quality of my eggs. Weird. Anyway, our plan (if this is a bfn, which I'm pretty sure it is) is to do Letrozole for two more cycles (for a total of four) and then move to injectibles (at a low dose) after that. She said we would do injectibles for two months and then move onto IVF for the summer. Hopefully we won't get that far.

I have decent eggs and DH has great sperm, so hopefully one of these IUIs will do it. I asked her if it was possible to have impenetrable eggs and she said no. Apparently I made that up.

[BellyBean]

Daisy, you are too funny. I had to chuckle at the "chicken egg" visual. I don't know how you were able to keep a straight face when she started trying to relate using props! I also have to agree or perhaps admit, I thought eggs could have a really think shell that sperm couldn't get through. We must have the same active imagination. My DH did have a "hamster egg" test where they tested his sperm to make sure they could fertilize an egg. DH still likes to ask every now and then if I am jealous of the hamster

[by-the-lake]

: Imagine having to explain your fuzzy little hamster who has your DH's features!!!

[DaisyMae08]

Oh Bellybean! Thank you for that laugh. Jealous of the hamster. Too funny! My acupuncturist told me about that test, and I have to admit I thought she was joking at first.

Yeah, the chicken egg prop was too much for me. She kept saying something about having to wait for the lucky egg. I kept thinking that if that was the lucky egg she was holding up, I might as well just take it with me and get this whole thing over with. Why the charade? Just hand over the lucky egg. Luckily DH was not with me this time because if I had made eye contact with him I would definitely have lost it.

[Becky8824]

Hi all - so funny how timing is always terrible. I'll I have ever wanted was to get a period because I have only gotten one in the last year. After my first round of clomid and failed IUI in January I have been waiting for AF. Of course now that it has come it will put my IUI right in the middle of my Valentine's Day trip to NY. I spoke with the nurse yesterday and she said the doc wants me to do clomid and injectables this month (not sure why the injectables). The nurse said I will take clomid for 5 days then 3 days of injectables then an IU possibly 2 days later. I think clomid starts on day 2 or 3. Guess I just need to call and find out.

If the IUI does fall on Valentines weekend should I cancel my trip or just wait until the next cycle??? WAIT what a funny word...I hate that word and I don't want to wait but do I want to lose alll this money with nonrefundable plane ticktes and online tourist specials that are also nonreundable!!!!

[Pookietooth]

WTG, to you, so sorry that you have had such bad luck with your cervix. Maybe you could ask for a second opinion from another surgeon? Or ask about GIFT as others have asked.

Becky, as far as whether to cancel the trip, I'd go with your gut on that. You wouldn't want to fly if it happened before the trip, since that might decrease the chances of sucess, so that means only if AF waits another couple weeks would you do it, right?

I hadn't heard of the hamster egg test. Is that the same as the acrosome reaction test? We had to do that one.

[MeadowMom]

Hello all. How is everyone doing? Has anyone started anything new?

WTG, I am so sorry to read your news. How are you doing? I hope you find some answers and solutions, I know it's hard to look on the bright side when everything around you is gray. Thinking of you.

I have been MIA for sometime now. Mostly due to the fact that I had to take a step back. I was so overwhelmed with trying and trying and getting negatives. Both dh and I were becoming consumed by TTC. We had to not think about for a bit, relax and be as natural as possible.
And it worked, had my beta yesterday. I was beginning to believe I would never hear her say it's positive!