The February Infertility One Thread - Page 5

[DaisyMae08]

Yay wtg4!! That's great news. And thanks for making me feel better about my reaction to my friends news. DH has been wonderful, but sometimes doesn't quite get it.

[wtg4miracle]

Just got back from my pre-op visit. It went alright. There were at least 4 girls ahead of me for testing. When I went in to talk to the nurse I of course was nosy and looked at the list of girls she was seeing.

One was for essure(sp?) to cause sterility. She is the same age as me. I was liked unnerved by this. Here I am trying to get pregnant, having damn surgery to have something that should come natural for me and I see this. I just thought it was ironic.

I was basically crying throughout the whole blood drawn and visit. They were wonderful people at the hospital. They asked why I was so upset. I told them this is should have never had happened to me. It was a mistake from my ob/gyn. I am subject to surgery for his carelessness. I have lost 10 months of ttc cause of him. After all this I need to get on a anti-depressant.

I am hoping my cervix can be fixed.......

[by-the-lake]

I'm very sorry for your awful day. Giving you the best of the best vibes for Friday. Is this an outpatient procedure?

[wtg4miracle]

Its a day surgery thing. I noticed on my chart it will take 1 1/2hr for the procedures and I will go home once I recover. But doc said it can go up to 4hrs if he sees more trouble.

[nummies]

wtg-

AFM- Just waiting to see the RE on Thursday to discuss plans.

[Catubodua]

Originally Posted by wtg4miracle

Cat--congrats what a surprise. You were just beginning to see an RE?

yes. i had my first appointment with the RE in Jan and was getting things moving on the IUI train.

originally, i found out the "HSG" that my regular ObGyn did wasn't a real HSG test - as in - they used sterile water in their office vs having dye and an x-ray machine. the RE and i were also discussing my cervix damage from a previous cone biopsy and LEEP.

so, i had all sorts of paperwork and bloodtests to do (the whole CD3 stuff) and had to get another HSG scheduled.... and then AF didn't arrive when i thought she would. i took a HPT and there it was - a positive.


for all and best wishes. i hope you gals don't mind, but i'll still be stalking you all

[DaisyMae08]

Congrats Catubodua!!!

Wtg4, I'm thinking about you. Best wishes for a successful surgery and a speedy recovery. I hope the anxiety is settling down.

[wtg4miracle]

Cat.. That is great you got a BFP right before IUI! I was hoping I was going to get a bfp before my surgery. I thought Murphy's Law would be on my side but I guess not.

Thanks Daisymae and everyone for wishing me the best for my surgery. It means so much to me that alot of you are rooting for me.

I am not as nervous as I was yesterday. I am just worried about complications from the lap. You know the risks they tell you. Perforated bowels, punctured bladder, break blood vessel etc. There is so much stake in this procedure. I am counting on this to help me so I can move onto ART. If this surgery is unsuccessful I would be basically stuck with no chances of pregnancy unless I do ZIFT. Of course no one does ZIFT. Then I am back at square one again. So I really want this to work and also afraid of the risks involved. WE have been praying and praying that this surgery is the solution to our nightmare.

[nummies]

Warning- Major vent ahead...

My brother's girlfriend is pregnant again. They don't take care of my nephew, they can't support themselves, and yet here they are. They aren't even freaking trying and they get pregnant.

Meanwhile, we have spent almost $3,000 and done three IUIs and nothing.

I have lost all faith in God. He has absolutely nothing to do with conception in my mind.

And even if I do get pregnant, I will be sharing YET ANOTHER pregnancy with her.

[wtg4miracle]

nummies-- I am so sorry. I know how you feel. I even question GOD. I always thinking he is laughing at us and see how much we can endure in this hardship. How can one reason why its easy for some and very hard and almost impossible for others. This sometimes gets my fists waving at the air to the higher ups. Why does God give others easy ttc and some have to suffer. The past few months I have been very bitter and loosing my faith also. I am forgetting about religion. All of this doesn't make sense. I am so sorry you are feeling like this. Its like getting beat up again while you are down. Its like kicking a dead horse. But you know once you get pregnant you will cherish the baby more than she will ever will. It has to happen to you soon. Your great efforts will pay off soon!

[Becky8824]

I am so sorry for all of you losing faith in God. I do believe he doesn't give us more than we can handle. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe we are going through hard times ttc because we will be the support that others need. Our children will be loved more than anyone can imagine. It is very hard for me as well. I do get angry and do sometimes want to blame God. Not only am I having such a hard time but I am surrounded by pain everyday working as a nurse in a pediatric ICU. I want to scream when someone has a baby and they are only 15...and it's not their first. Her first was at 12. As the doctors tell her that her baby probably won't make it through the night her boyfriend is sitting in a chair that has wheels and spins....yes he was spinning during this conversation. GRRRR!!! Why do these people get to have babies?

[wtg4miracle]

Becky8824--thanks for your comforting words. I am still having a hard time with all of this. But somehow I might someday know why this is happening to us.

AFM: Surgery tomorrow I can't believe its tomorrow. yikes.

[Pookietooth]

Nummies, to you. It's so not fair who gets pregnant so easily. I have been wearing fertility beads, which are just some stones picked for their supposed ability to help fertility.

So I got my results (sorry to be so late to reply, had a playdate then dinner etc.). I got a BFP! My beta level was 150, they were looking for minimum of 50 and optimally at least 100. They wanted me to come in for a second blood draw on Sunday, but that's ds's birthday so I postponed it until Monday. Hopefully the second one will be enough higher.

[BellyBean]

Congratulations Pookie!!!! ::: Nice work keeping the great trend going!!!

[Julia'sMom]

Originally Posted by Pookietooth

So I got my results (sorry to be so late to reply, had a playdate then dinner etc.). I got a BFP! My beta level was 150, they were looking for minimum of 50 and optimally at least 100. They wanted me to come in for a second blood draw on Sunday, but that's ds's birthday so I postponed it until Monday. Hopefully the second one will be enough higher.

YEAH!!!!!!!!!! Congrats!!!!

[by-the-lake]

YEAH POOKIE!!!!!:::

[LibbyLou]

Pookie, I'm so happy for you!!!! :

[DaisyMae08]

Congrats Pookie!!!!

Wtg4, I'm thinking about you today. I hope all goes well!

[MeadowMom]

WTG, you will be in my thoughts today.

Pookie, Congratulations!!::

[Catubodua]

CONGRATS POOKIE! :


and, wtg, sending best wishes for an easy surgery!