we're right there too, girls. i dont yell though, but lately more and more i just feel so depressed. like i dont know how to do this anymore depressed. and im trying so hard to embrace my paradigm and i feel like crap when i see mamas so strong and educated and i just keep whining on here about our issues. the frustration has just turned to this bleak feeling of "let us just survive this" and learn from it too and change our lives and everything too, but the depression is getting unbearable. for me, the feelings of no healing progress for dd and lack of sleep are i think the biggest contributors.
poor dh is there with you on the yelling. he just wants to punch a wall every time dd wakes up at night (which is constantly obviously), but he doesnt. he is definitely shutting down though. i think counseling is def in our near future. anybody else there?
Also, on the other side of the methylation diagram is how dopamine and serotonin are made. Serotonin is the target for many antidepressants, and I associate dopamine with being able to focus on the outside world. (more info)
The main variables at work on those two are another MTHFR mutation, dietary protein, methyl groups again, and the power of positive thinking. They're also broken down by amine enzymes, so I wonder if eating more amines (to use up the resources) could have an effect? I'm totally guessing on that one though.