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post #21 of 23
This is my 8th pg, ninth child. I have a 4 yo son and a 2 yo daughter. We officially started ttc in 98, took 18 months to get pg. That baby stopped developing at 8w3d, but nothing was noticed until almost the end of the first trimester. Took four years to get pg the second time in 03. Again, I lost that one, a little girl, early on in June. The doc I had at the time suggested testing and ran tons of tests and said I showed up with a clotting disorder and suggested aspirin and progesterone. Got pg a couple months later and and with the help of aspirin and prgesterone, I have my son!

Got pg again in summer 2005 and immediate lost that one. Got pg immediately after with my daughter. Since then, I lost three more. One in October of 2007, and a set of twins in May 2008. After the loss of the twins, my then current peri insisted on repeat testing and I showed positive for lupus anticoagulant and MTHFR (something missed by my previous doc and her testing). He insisted I would need heparin for any future pg. We aren't so sure. With two healthy children (admittedly, the aren't sure why I have the two I do, with the MTHFR being missed and basically untreated), do I REALLY need two shots a day?

We are hoping the aspirin (lupus and mthfr) and super mega doses of folic acid (mthfr) will be enough. We were unaware of my need for the insanely huge doses of folic acid before. This is our first pg since learning about all that. The aspirin worked with Ethan and Ainsleigh. I cannot stand the thought of another pregnancy worrying every second, holding my breath in the peri's office waiting for each u/s (you get an u/s each appointment, before you do anything else). I'm tired of being thought of as a medical condition and not a pg woman. We always wanted three children and this will (hopefully!) be my last pg and I want to enjoy it, all of it.

I don't have issues at the end of the pg, as in delivery, just in getting through the first trimester and on. I don't want to sit in a hospital again, being managed when I don't NEED to be managed at that point.

But all at the same time, I WANT THIS BABY! Sigh. I'm sick as a dog, tired as anything and my boobs are so sore, but I'm so grateful for all the signs.
post #22 of 23
I am lurking occasionally, but not really able to get excited yet. (Hi Guin, congrats!) I just made an appointment with a CNM- the three OB's who were practicing in my rural county are no longer taking patients. So I am probably going to get a baseline ultrasound, talk about a possible cerclage, and only go back for ultrasounds (not nearly as often as I need them, but I simply can't take time off work).
post #23 of 23
I have been a nervous wreck. I still refuse to get attached because of the possibility that it will not last. I'm 6w5d today and this is the longest I have ever been pregnant (until now, the longest was 6w to the day). DH is very optimistic, because my symptoms are very different from all my others, but I am not even telling anyone until I make it to 13 weeks. We are not out of the woods yet.
Part of me feels like I need to protect myself, but another part of me feels like I must be a bad mother because I don't want to love my child yet. Every little twinge or pulsation or cramp or gas bubble has me fearing the worst.

I wonder if miscarriage/pg loss survivors are the only women who are actually glad to have morning sickness and sore breasts and food aversions. Because every minute I still have symptoms, I know my bean is still in there! (just had another borderline painful twinge down there... yikes, this sucks.)
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