i am so frustrated with our ped! i took ds for a WBV yesterday evening and it started out so great. the doctor and nurse were both super easy going about us not vaxing (finally) and i was feeling really at ease. i was planning to say something to her about retracting because i haven't yet but she has never tried or said anything excpet for his first visit she asked if we were going to circ, i said no and she said, good. so i though we had a foreskin wise ped. well last visit she undid his diaper and he peed on her so she forgot to go back to check him. this time she undid his diaper and i said, im sure i dont have to worry about this with you but i want to make sure you know not to retract him. and then she starts pushing on the base of his penis and pulling his skin back! to be honest, i dont think she was "retracting him", i never saw the glans and ds was completely oblivious to the whole thing, but i also dont think what she did was necessary. she said i should push it back without pressure in the bath, and then kept doing it! i said dont push it so hard and she stopped and said, he has until age 2 for that and then if he still isnt retractable by 4 we do something about it. i completely clamed up and said, oh ok. 
i feel like a terrible mama! i feel like she totally violated him and i just sat and watched! but i said something! i guess i just need to be more firm? dh says we should just never go back to her but i feel lost as to how to find a ped that will be foreskin wise, breastfeeding supportive(she nurse her daughter for 2+years) and ok with us not vaxing. i feel like we have 2 out of 3 and that seems pretty darn good these days and maybe i could try and educate her? but i tend to get the guts to say something and then when they say something back i clam up! i mean i knew what she was saying was total bs and i said nothing! why do doctors have this power? ugh. i feel sick to my stomach. 
i feel like a terrible mama! i feel like she totally violated him and i just sat and watched! but i said something! i guess i just need to be more firm? dh says we should just never go back to her but i feel lost as to how to find a ped that will be foreskin wise, breastfeeding supportive(she nurse her daughter for 2+years) and ok with us not vaxing. i feel like we have 2 out of 3 and that seems pretty darn good these days and maybe i could try and educate her? but i tend to get the guts to say something and then when they say something back i clam up! i mean i knew what she was saying was total bs and i said nothing! why do doctors have this power? ugh. i feel sick to my stomach. 
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