Honestly? I feel better about my body (overall) than I have in my entire life. I struggled with body image issues and an eating disorder for most of my teens and early 20s. I used to be average weight (healthy but thin & shapely), and that's when I thought I was huge and disgusting. I ended up becoming overweight b/c I stopped throwing up for fear of throwing up my birth control and getting pregnant (irony much?). I gained more weight after getting married, as did my DH. Then just kept gaining.
When I initially got pregnant, I lost 10lbs due to morning sickness, then gained back 25 total. I went for my PP checkup yesterday, and I've lost 30lbs!
: So I'm actually thinner than I was pre-preg, which I suspected since I fit into pants I couldn't wear even before, and the pants I fit into before are baggy on me now. I have a ton of stretch marks now, and my boobs aren't as perky, and I have a little bit of a "Mommy pooch".
You know what, though? I'm OK with it. I want to lose more weight, but I want to do it healthfully this time - not just for myself, but for my daughter. I realize that my body is amazing - not for the way it looks, but because I created and nourished a baby for 42 weeks, made it through a difficult and long labor, and birthed a beautiful, healthy daughter. Now I am helping her thrive by nursing her with my body, and that is a beautiful thing!