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Originally Posted by Jennifer3141  Happy early birthday, Ami! I hope you get your little mini goal this week. 
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Thanks for the birthday wishes! I'm looking forward to it & also not. I'm going to be 27 (gosh, I feel old! lol) and it will be dinner out with family. I want sushi though. I'm going to save up as many weeklies for sushi as possible. I've been dreaming about the salmon sashimi.
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Originally Posted by FondestBianca I'm working on fixing the inside but, until I get a better handle on that those pts are going to be very hard to eat. it seems like I either binge and sweets and carbs all day long or go on a diet and take it to the extreme so I don't feel like I'm wasting all this time not being able to eat what I want.
I thought I could do it right this time... I really did. I hope I can make it better each day and get closer to correct each time. I'm not going to give up at this because I've really let myself go and I feel emotionally and physcially uncomfortable in my skin. My body feels aweful, I really need to clean up my eating habbits, I need to keeping trying ww and not let myself slip up and eat over my pts. If I do that, I'll quit on the spot. I need to keep going and try my hardest not to screw myself up in the process.
this is hard. changing the inside, reprogramming, is hard.
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Hugs, Tracy. I used to be a binge eater too. And an emotional eater. Still fighting the emotional eating from time to time, but the binge eating I've conquered. It's a hard road, but it can be done. For me, I found that WW actually cured me of it. I forced myself to eat all my points. And to eat whatever I really wanted. So, if I wanted chocolate cake, I'd eat it while staying in points. I found that this REALLY helped me break the binge-starve cycle. Once there was no food I couldn't eat, my binge triggers weren't hit anymore. What would happen if you ate all of your points? Even if that meant you had a sugary dessert to do it? What's the worst that would happen? By allowing yourself to eat 'forbidden' foods in portion controlled pieces you are breaking bad habits. First, you get rid of the 'good food, bad food' dichotomy that's failed you all this time. Second, you are training yourself to eat a reasonable amount of food--not too much to stuff yourself, but not so little you starve yourself. And let's be real, never having cake again is so not worth it. Cake every day, no, but never again? That would be mean & unnecessary.
This is all from personal experience/theorizing, but I've found that anorexics & binge eaters are really different sides of the same coin. One of my friends used to be anorexic, then began binge eating and, by the time I met her, very overweight. It's the whole cycle of 'control'. By binge eating you think you don't have control but you do. You are choosing to not put any restrictions on the amount & type of food you are eating. That IS control. Sometimes I fight myself wanting to lower my points too much. Shoot, for the first couple weeks I didn't give myself any nursing points--big mistake & falling into past habits. The thing is, I was scared the whole time this week using them, but I did use them & all my weeklies. And I lost 2 lbs without starving. So it works. I have to trust that the process works & follow it. That's the great thing about WW--thousands of women have tested this program over & over again and they keep refining it to make it better & better. It's hard to let go, but ultimately, you need to just jump in feet first.
So, all this long winded post to say: Just do it. It's scary, it's hard, but you need to jump. You need to trust the process and stop clinging to behaviors that have proven to hurt you. It's scary because it's the unknown, but once you do it, I promise, it will get easier to fight your ingrained habits.
Oh, and the whole nursing points are there so that you don't lose weight too quickly. You don't want to lose weight faster than your body can detox, otherwise you are pushing all those extra toxins into your bm and then your child. Especially for an EBF baby, that's very very dangerous. They also give you extra points so you can eat lots more nutrients than you would otherwise. Believe me, I've depleted my body of iron (literally, I had no stores left) and it was very unpleasant. It's also very dangerous. I had to change a lot of things I did to get back to 'normal', and even now I have to be careful I don't fall back into the wrong habits.
Right now, with bf your body needs more nutrients so that you can give them to your baby and have enough left over for yourself. And calories are a nutrient. If you don't have enough, your supply might not diminish right now, but in the future, with your growing baby's demands and even less calories coming in, something will have to give, kwim?
Ami
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and tell you that you are not alone! I have felt that way before, I'm sure many of us had. Self-improvement is not for sissies! It IS hard work! My journey is far from over, but I feel I have made progress and, believe me, it is worth it! Please know we are all here to support you.
and I got my first, "you should watch what you eat" comment from someone else. From that day forward I was very aware of my weight. I didn't actually get "chubby" or "chunky" or "overweight" until after highschool. In high school I just focused on the other physical stuff I didn't like about myself or personality flaws. I've always been really hard on myself. As an adult much of it is directed at my size.
). A former alcoholic is told to stay away from bars and people who drink.... but, I can't stay away from places that serve food and people who eat it.
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