thanks mammas. Now I'm kind of concerned. And yes, you certainly may ask why. My oldest has a large porportion of her vaxes, we started slowing down around 18 months and she only got one at that visit, her HIB. She had a bad reaction that lasted almost a week. Not super serious compared to what on here have gone through, but enough for us to stop. My other three dc aren't vaxed at all. I have a 4.5 yo, a 2.5 yo and a 5 mo. This decision not to vax anymore was a fine one for us, although a bit nerve wracking at times but ok. However that was when I had one or two children, all breasfed, not in school etc. Since then we've gone through some illnesses, although my dc are very healthy but it seems when they do get something, the get the biggies with high fevers, coughs that linger and scare me, and are out of school for more than a day or so, closer to a week. Granted none of these are vpd's but handling them has made me really realize what I can take, what I can watch them go through and what I can handle. Now literally, I end up in the bathroom feeling sick when anyone even thinks they are coming down with something. I just can't handle anymore and I'm very nervous with my 5mo. It also seems to be a common thread that wc, which scares me the most probably, and I could say the same for the shot, seems to be something fairly common in the unvaxed community. I don't want this disease at any age and I'm mostly afraid of dh coming home with it from work, more so than school and here I sit with 3 out of 4 totally vulnerable to it.
So, and I know you all will think I'm nuts, but I just can't handle any more worrying about this disease. On one hand I look at my robust kids and wonder if they are that way because they are unvaxed, then they get sick and they are down and out and each handles things differently. I have waivered on this shot for years, and was going to do it when my now 4.5 year old went to 3 year preschool but the doc actually talked me down from that and led me more to PC. But at the time I hadn't researched PC and didn't want to do it without knowing more. So I left with not shots, feeling a bit uneasy but I was ready to do the dtap. But also a bit Ok with it if even my doc talked me out of it and led me to something else.
I know all the scary parts of this vaccine, it scares me to death. I'm scared to get it and not to. I just know what I can handle to see my kids go through and what I can't. Sodium ascorbate...all that. If they coughed like the description of this is I would just not be ok with that. Not to mention missing tons of school because they'd be up at night etc. Just not ok with me.
So all that to say, I've actually jumped back on the selective and delayed wagon. And the last straw is actually Dr. Sears. I really really put a lot of faith in him, consult his books all the time. So I thought why wasn't I putting as much faith in his vaccine schedule as the rest of the things I turn to his writings for.
At this point I feel like I have a good doc who asks me if I want to continue not to immunize, and I have got to somewhat trust someone. I just don't feel qualified anymore to make some of these decisions. I guess I have lost trust in myself watching my kids go through things like strep when mommy says "let the fever burn", then after a week of a fever of 104 I go into the doc and my kids get antibiotics and it's all solved. I feel like I've put my kids through hell because of my beliefs and I would feel like such a failure if I put them through anymore. Does this make sense? I know you are all thinking...well what is the vax going to do? I'm just plain scared either way.
thanks for the info. So since it's more reactive later on, should I just leave her at 3 doses of dtap and consider it good?