Last night I watched the "orgasmic birth" video and it totally got me feeling scared & worried. I hate that watching that video did that to me. All day long, I have been trying to visualize a smooth birthing experience. My last one was really tough. I did it, she was born at home, all was well, but when I was watching the video, i felt like "OMG, I really have to do taht again don't i?"...and it started to freak me out.
I'm feeling better today - but still, it's hard. It's so unknown. My mantra is "enjoy the moment"...let's hope I can do that