I keep reading all these posts from you mamas who want your baby to get here as soon as possible. I remember having those same feelings with my DD (granted, I remember having them when I was past my due date!). But, this time around, I feel soooooo not ready for this baby. First, I am still loving being pregnant and feel great (since we plan to have only 2 kids, these are my last few weeks as a pregnant mama). Second, there is too much crap going on in my life (house is being worked on, preparing to sell our place in May, still working, and i just feel so busy with the day to day crap). Third, I haven't even nested yet! I don't even know where my diaper stash is at right now (well, i know it is in the basement but who on earth knows where the box is???). And fourth, the arrival of this baby means a huge change in my life - we are moving in May and I'll be quitting my job of 10 years. Yikes! Oh - and we don't have a name picked out yet either. All of this is so unsettling!
Plus, since we are so busy, i feel so disconnected to DH which is a strange feeling when birth is approaching. I have these daily feelings of "okay baby, just stay in there, I can't handle going into labor right now." I guess I just need to get to space where things can settle down a bit and maybe that ready feeling will come. Or, more importantly, that connected feeling between DH and myself.
As i write all that, I understand why I am not ready. But, understanding is not the issue. It is upsetting to me that I am not feeling ready...and I really want to be in that "when is this baby going to get here!" phase. Is that going to happen at all this time around? I'm starting to wonder. I really want to have a good birth experience and am worried that things are just not setup for that right now.
Anyway, is there anyone else out there who isn't feeling ready? Please tell me I'm not alone in this!!
Plus, since we are so busy, i feel so disconnected to DH which is a strange feeling when birth is approaching. I have these daily feelings of "okay baby, just stay in there, I can't handle going into labor right now." I guess I just need to get to space where things can settle down a bit and maybe that ready feeling will come. Or, more importantly, that connected feeling between DH and myself.
As i write all that, I understand why I am not ready. But, understanding is not the issue. It is upsetting to me that I am not feeling ready...and I really want to be in that "when is this baby going to get here!" phase. Is that going to happen at all this time around? I'm starting to wonder. I really want to have a good birth experience and am worried that things are just not setup for that right now.
Anyway, is there anyone else out there who isn't feeling ready? Please tell me I'm not alone in this!!
me too!!!
