Yep I can relate... I am so dissappointed as well, I actually chose a c-sect instead of even trying an epidural for pain relief from pit, how sad is that. I hadn't slept in over 40 hours and had been in hard labor for 18 hours I couldn't even think at that point and figured the epidural would just lead to a c-sect anyhow so I should just do it. If only I had tried the epidural first, things might have gone better. Dh is going to get a vasectomy tommorrow morning --against my wishes..... But we do have 3 beautiful children, Thank God. I think many births are not what people plan because there is no way to control them 100%, you can only do your best and try not to beat yourself up. I am still trying to forgive myself as well.
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1/2/04 at 5:39am