post #41 of 50
3/17/09 at 9:18am
I was wondering if you could explain a bit more what you meant here! I'm interested and nosey! Don't worry if you don't want to though!
hmmm, I guess what I'm saying is that I have a lot of resources (books, etc) here so I "know" what I should be doing the waldorf way... I've put a lot of energy into making our home a sanctuary and a soothing place for our family where creativity can flow freely, but at the end of the day- kids are still kids and I'm still human and still find myself screaming at them for some lovely mischief they've concocted- like taking all the dirt out of the houseplants and throwing it all around to make "brown rain" (which was yesterdays debacle)
Sometimes I just don't LOVE Waldorf, there are days when I feel like life would be easier to just turn on the TV and give myself a break. Sometimes I just feel like I'm going through the motions with all the different festivals.
So for now, I've put all the books away on the bookshelf (I usually have them out on an end table for quick reference) so I'm not feeling constantly reminded what I'm doing wrong and I'm trying to approach things more moment by moment rather than looking forward asking myself "is this the Waldorf way of doing things?". I realize that it's my own self-judgement and I should be easier on myself. I just want to feel like this journey is coming naturally and not just rules I am following
I came across this blog posting which helped me breathe a little easier while at the same time made me realize that maybe we aren't meant to be a strictly waldorf family (ie- #6 re: playdates and classes, I would D.I.E. of isolation if we didn't have playdates)
So my apologies for taking this thread in a totally different direction...