Not sure what to think anymore - vent, rant, etc.,

[soccermama]

I want to just throw in the towel with my job and say 'adios'...if only we lived in a perfect world. I'm tired of the arrogance. I'm tired of the attitude. I'm tired of being treated like a peon just because I'm a female in a male dominated industry and office and not taken seriously - I know this is the norm, but still tired of it.
I'm just not sure what to think about my job anymore. I work my a$$ off and about 50% appreciate it. I don't think I'll ever be 100% happy until I'm either a SAHM or a part time SAHM working PT doing something that I'm passionate about - kids, art, gardening, etc., H is in the process of trying to get a new job making more money, but is unsure if wants to take it. He knows my passions and wants to help me make it a reality some day.

This whole thing is just a rant, vent, whatever you want to call. And it'll probably all change later on today or tomorrow.

Are there others out there that in my shoes - somewhat, at least? I am thankful for my job in these times - very thankful - and maybe I should just shut up and deal with what I deal with at work, but it's driving me crazy. Absolutely. Crazy.

[Carita]

Well - I don't feel under appreciated because I am a woman, but I do feel like I am supposed to live and breathe my work 24/7. And that I don't, because I am spending nights and weekends reading board books instead to my son, it means to others that I am less able or committed. Maybe I won't be as successful as my dreams because of that - maybe I would be happier having the kind of career with work I can "leave at the office."

I go through these thoughts all the time. DH wants to be the SAHP, but then that means I would have to live and breathe my work 24/7, and that after becoming a mom, I don't want that anymore, then the burden is on him as well as me.

If only things were perfect... like if there were universal health insurance, so I could freelance. IDK - I can't even think of any scenario that is quite perfect, and that is the hard part ... so here I am just trying to muddle through, blindly grasping on straws...