I am feeling depressed. I have no motivation to keep trying. I've been trying to lose weight, trying to keep the apartment as neat as possible, trying to eat healthy, trying to take my supplements, trying to remember to brush my teeth all the time so I don't freakin' lose them (I got so much dental damage this pregnancy
), trying to remember to maintain proper posture, trying to look forward and prepare for a day when I have life together enough that I could actually take all of the kids somewhere during the day by myself.
Well right now I'm just not seeing that happening. I can't even get us all dressed and fed before noon. I am dragging all day, so tired. The apartment always looks like crap and I hate that. I didn't lose any weight this week and I am just so fed up with everything. What I would give for some SLEEP. We are planning to call a cleaner to come in but I haven't worked up the motivation to call anyone. I am so tired I sound like such an airhead on the phone right now.
Waaaahhhh. Thank you for listening. Oh, by the way I haven't been taking all my supplements for the last two days, the ones that usually keep me hanging on. It shows. I guess I need to take them again. I just want the apartment to look clean again, and I want to sleep.