end of pregnancy blues...thats why I haven't posted much...
38 wks tomorrow or Tuesday (I'm confused about that, and who really cares) some days I feel great, usually if I've gotten excellent sleep and ds is cooperative and well rested as well. But lately, having more days where I'm swollen all over like an ogre, can't stand for more than 10 seconds without my feet falling asleep, circulation all over sucks, and my hemorrhoids are totally prolapsed and hurting...I just want to lay down all the time for comfort, yet thats the last thing I want to do at this point. I really want to be up and moving around, walking, squatting, lunging up stairs, and getting cervix to start dilating...the baby's head is really low in my pelvis and I bet if I could manage to do all these active things, the pressure would surely help dilate me a little more. I had my first reading of somewhat high bp for me, and although I had just had a stressful car ride with ds, I worry a little with the extreme swelling and here and there headaches/lightheadedness...ugh. But mw could barely reach my cervix enough to say I am just 1 cm, she had her arm in there I think and barely touched with tip of finger tip iykwim. That was a little disheartening. I don't think I or my mw expected me to even get this far since ds was a 36 wker, but now I am feeling like come on already, I can't even stand on these feet comfortably! And labor? Please, my hopes of feeling good for labor have pretty much gone out the window...my body is suffering already in more ways than one.
