My heart breaks for you. I am so terribly sorry for the loss of your son, Matthew.
There's a quote from Rabbi Yitzchak Ginsburgh that says "Every soul that comes into this world comes here with a very specific mission. When that mission is completed, the soul can leave. The holiest of souls need so little time here in this world that some never even make it outside the womb, others only need their heart to beat once, others not even that."
This quote was one of the few things that brought me comfort last year. I pray that it offers you some small peace as well. No words are adequate, but sometimes some come a little close.
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