Originally Posted by LionTigerBear
I feel pretty bonded to my baby, but I, too, have a hard time connecting THIS baby to my pregnancy. It's like, I was pregnant-- I vaguely remember-- about a millin years ago-- and now I have this baby. Maybe part of it is my desire to block out memories of the birth. Thinking about the birth, even though it was a "great" at home, vaginal birth, still make me want to cry. Plus, much of my pregnancy was pretty miserable.
That's me too. I've actually bonded a bit more intensely with this babe than I did initially with Guinevere (because of fear/caution after Guinevere was born -- I didn't trust myself totally at first, and she seemed sooooo fragile to me? Something. I loved her enormously but the bonding feeling was more gradual. Anyway), but I had a more intense feeling of connection while pregnant with Guinevere than with Eowyn.
But I think that's because back then I didn't have a toddler already so it was a more intimate feeling of connection and bonding during pregnancy. This time I was very focused on the child already here, if that makes sense, so being pregnant was more about not being able to do the things I wanted to do, and the physical discomforts.
Anyway. This was our last pregnancy. My husband is getting a vasectomy, assuming we can afford whatever insurance doesn't cover (thankfully it covers the bulk of it but we don't yet have an exact figure). And if not, then we'll be doing FAM and using barrier methods. We're done. It's bittersweet but for the best. I'm old and this pregnancy was, for the most part, miserable. The labor was nearly as long as my first, and the birth itself was excruciating.
The baby is amazing and totally worth it, so I am treasuring this time, as it passes all too soon.
I don't regret having gone through this for Eowyn, and the timing was as good as it could be I think in relation to Guinevere (she'll be three in early April), so they can be playmates as Eowyn grows, but Guinevere's old enough to not need me as intensely right now. I honestly cannot fathom wanting to be pregnant again right now. Y'all are some brave mamas.AKislandgirl
, it took us years to get pregnant with Guinevere. It took a month and a half to get pregnant with Eowyn. I have no experience with Clomid, but I do know that for some people your body can change quite a bit from the experience and you may find it much easier to get pregnant the second go around.