This new moon is really amazing for me!
: I have been working really hard on loosening up and letting go and just being more free-spirited for awhile now. I hadn't given the TM process much thought and this morning I started to feel rather antsy about it a few minutes before "the time". Our new kitten was in my lap, though, so I relaxed by petting her and scratching her little head and I didn't go anywhere or do anything for awhile. Eventually, I did decide to go out and look for a few magazines and whatever struck my fancy. I had a few ideas and started with the health food store. No luck there. None of the mags struck my fancy, which kind of surprised me, but I went with it. As I walked out, I saw a travel agency across the parking lot (never knew it was there). On my way over there, I stopped into my favorite day spa and picked up a brochure. At the travel agency, I browsed through all the glossy, beautiful brochures of Hawaii, which is my dream vacation. I narrowed it down to two and the agent kindly wished me well. I rarely go to Starbucks and don't drink coffee, but I stopped in one just to see if anything came to mind. I decided to indulge in hot chocolate. I ignored my tentative plans and just drove. I ended up at a new-to-me health food store where I found a free magazine I like and a gardening magazine that "struck my fancy". More importantly, I saw something that triggered an idea for my map base. I took a picture of it for reference and on the way home, I refined the idea. Once I got home, ideas just came flying at me and I went with it...no questions asked. Thankfully, I had the foresight to ask my dad to pick up my daughter from school today and keep her until 4 pm. I was VERY self-absorbed and only came up for air when the doorbell rang exactly at 4 pm. DD knew what I was working on and headed upstairs to read while I continued working.
I completely finished my map base before we headed out for DD's school fundraising event tonight. I LOVE IT!!!
In the past, I would have not wanted to go anywhere until I was COMPLETELY finished. I *had* a tendency to zero in on exactly one thing and ONLY that thing to the exclusion of all else and/or be grumpy when forced to refocus. I happily changed clothes and walked with my family to the school and was cheerfully social and interested. AWESOME!!! Now, we're back home and I wanted to check in here before moving on to the next step. I am totally loving this work/focus, break/breathe, work/focus, break/breathe pattern and it feels soooo comfortable now. Any suggestions on how to represent this on my TM?
Also, while I was painting this afternoon, I realized that "growing" is a key element for me. My TM is turning out to be VERY different than any others I have seen or read about, but I am just going with what feels good to do. I am representing the "growth" with a picture that has come up for me in MANY different applications in the past. I draw this same picture over and over again under certain circumstances (mostly healing sessions of various modalities, but also free-form drawing). I added some new twists and nuances to it to make it "fresh" and "new" for the coming year. Will this be likely to let it finally come to fruition? (Whatever "it" is...) Or am I unwittingly repeating the same pattern over again???
Tracy & others - I added emphasis to my questions since my reply is long. Thanks for any insight!