OMGs, I have been meaning to post. The way the Universe chose to interpret one part of my map, and the manifestation as a result, is nothing short of truly amazing. TRULY amazing.
The story is basically this: I have been a single mama, and pretty well alone, since ds was born (2001). I have had a couple of dates, but nothing to write home about, and mostly stopped bothering. I had my ds late; I was 41 when he was born. I thought I was destined to die alone and celibate, like my grandmother, who I resemble in many ways.
I don't want to be alone, but I'm 50 now, and don't have time to waste on bulldoody, kwim? I didn't want to just pick up someone for the sake of sex, so I went without, but I wasn't sure I wanted the baggage of a relationship either. Nor did I want to pursue or put the energy into finding a relationship.
Basically, I wanted someone...but I didn't want anybody.
I put things in the relationship portion of my map for the last 3 years, but nothing ever came of it.
This year, I found a little one-liner in a magazine, and thought it was cool because it had my name on it, so I stuck it on there.
It said "and
Pam asked for love, and the Universe said Yes".
Well.
Nobody calls me Pam, except my family of origin and people that knew me before the age of 17.
So...this summer, on Facebook, I found my high school sweetheart. He and I dated when I was 14 and he was 17. Then again for a time when I was 15 and he was 18.
And he's single. And he's been celibate for years, too. And he's been in love with me all these years. And I have had feelings for him, too, but never let myself recognize it.
So...we are an item again!

He lives 837 miles away, and we can't physically be together for 2 years or more, but we're head over heels in love and we'll be married, someday.
Talk about freaking amazing

Oh-- and he's the only one in my present life that calls me Pam. Because he knew me as that, back then

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