She's gone - Page 7

[operamommy]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Much love and light to you and your family.

[black balloon]

We had Rory's memorial yesterday. it was a beautiful day here, warm and sunny but not too hot. On a day like this when she was healthy, Rory would have been out hiking and swimming with daddy all day.

The ceremony was small and private and she is buried next to her uncle John now.

It might sound strange, but the time since she's been gone, I've felt joyful, like a big weight is gone. There will be no more struggle for her, no more spinal taps, pain, or seizures. No more chemo, no more asking for no more chemo. No more bad dreams. no more hospitals. Just peace, happiness, and everything she could ever want. My partner has been handling it worse. He lost his brother just after Aurora was born and is just not dealing very well. He is at peace that Rory is in no more pain, but also suffering very deeply from her loss.

After Rory's service, we did something, impulsively, that I fear I'm going to regret. There's an ultrasound place not too far from where we live. I wanted real, tangible evidence of the baby I am 17 weeks pregnant with. Our son, John Altan Andrew Hughes, will be joining us in September or thereabouts. John is after DH's brother, Andrew is after DH, and Hughes is a family surname. As for Altan, it means the same thing as Aurora--dawn. Not only is this linking my children, who will never meet, together, it also has a powerful second meaning. When we meet baby Jack in September, it will be a new dawn for our family, another chapter.

Thank you for all of your prayers and general good wishes. I have not been a very active poster, but I love this board and all of the members.

Antonia

[Onemagicmummy]

i am glad you had a peacefull day. it sounds very beautiful.

love

Kiz

[LionTigerBear]

Thank you for sharing about the memorial with us. I'm so sorry that Drew is in so much pain. Such a terrible loss for both of you, I really can't imagine. Congratulations on your beautiful baby boy who is coming to you! The name is beautiful. Please take care of yourselves.

[mommajb]

You have experienced a profound loss. May much joy come into your life.

[AllieFaye]

I'm so sorry.

[Degas]

I am so very sorry.
There aren't enough words to describe how you must be feeling - I can't even imagine.

[Mizelenius]

I am so very, very sorry, mama.

Many many to you and your family.

Blessings on your baby John Altan.

[LavenderMae]

Her memorial sounded lovely. Thank you for sharing it with us.

There's so much I want to say to you but I can not find the words.



The name you chose for your son is so thoughtful and loving, it made me cry reading why you chose it and it's meaning. So much peace and love to you.

[askew]

I am very sorry for your loss.

[MGBoutique]

My heart aches for your loss. I am glad you're finding peace knowing that she isn't suffering any more. I hope that in time, all of your memories of your precious little girl will bring you warmth and comfort...that you can wrap yourself in those memories like a warm coat with her scent on it, and feel peace and love.

Thank you for sharing her story.

Your family will be in my prayers.

[Sierra]

(((((((Love to you)))))))

[mamajody]

Peace mama! I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with your family.

[snoopy5386]

the tears are flowing for your family. I can't even imagine having my child go from healthy to gone in one season. I'm so sorry.

[tbone]

Prayers to you and and your family.

[NamastePlatypus]

I have no words.

[momfosampson]

I'm sorry for your loss

[BookGoddess]

The memorial sounds lovely and I'm glad you've found some peace. You have my continued wishes for healing and strength.

[mamaof5boys]

My prayers are with you for healing and comfort. I am so sorry for your loss!

[Ammaarah]