I am so sorry that your trauma was not recognized for such a long time. How is your child now? I can't imagine going through something like that, and I can't imagine anyone denying such a situation being traumatic! I know what panic attacks feel like, though I haven't had any for years now, thank God. Do you know what kind of therapy you will be working through yet?
My ODS had seizures as a baby and eventually a stroke, and had a medication toxicity issue that almost killed him. He's fine now aside from some lingering issues from his stroke.
My youngest has cancer and he's doing pretty good, still in treatment and he will always be in a very high risk category but he's doing very, very well and living a near-normal existence outside of his treatments.
I have *finally* received some referrals for actual one-on-one psychiatric help, and I've actually been referred to a psychiatrist that's more along the lines of psychotherapy/cognitive behavioral therapy vs. drugs which are currently not an option for my due to my son's health status. (He's still frequently breastfeeding.)
I'm looking forward to it and I hope it helps. There are many issues aside from the PTSD that need to be addressed, but that's the most pressing for me right now because of how it impacts my abilities to be a caregiver.