Originally Posted by Talula Fairie
I keep checking this thread to see if you have given birth yet, HennyPenny. I'm rooting for you
If you lived near me I'd invite you over. I have a pool and a hot tub at my housing complex and it's been pretty warm lately.
yeah... I'm just a bit far from Cali! hahabit of an update:
I really do feel no closer to having this baby than I did 2 months ago!
I told my husband today my big concern is that b/c I'm always contracting I don't know I'm in actual labour until the baby is crowning! ha.
Today I have been trying not to think like that though. I've been telling myself that God already has the day, and time picked out for this baby. nothign I can do will change that. I was starting to get VERY stressed... but I realize stressing doesn't change anything. then I started thinking about it more... and I believe the reason I am feeling so much stress is my body keep giving off the "get ready for this baby to be born" signals, and then the baby isn't born. so it's confusing my phisiologically. I'm in total "birth mode" and have been for about 3 weeks. it's draining my adrenaline and depleting my resources for when I'm actually in active labour.
so mentally I'm trying to remind myself ot just be. calm. I'm not doing a great job. but I'm making effort. mind over matter, right? I CAN
do this! (ummm right?
) it's not ike I am the first person in the world to go through this!
on a similar note... the only thing that keeps budding back up in my mind that is stealing my zen/calm/mellow is I worry that I'm going through this b/c of something I am doing or not doing. I tried primrose oil to no avail. it starts contractions to be more intense and then fades out after about 8 hrs.. (I seem to be stuck in 8 hr mode. I contract heavily for about 8 hrs only to have it fade over and over again) so I don't want to just be constantly trying to jump start something to no avail as it's physically draining! but I don't want to be stuck in prodromal labour for two or 3 more weeks either. Is baby in a weirdo position not putting enough pressure on my cervix, and I could help it out? or do I give my body the space and time to work those things out on it's own. I'm not usually such an "internationalist" but I'm getting umm... tired of the back and forth. it hit me in the weak spot, I tell ya!
I'm stuck between the ideas of trying to help my body out - b/c maybe there is something keeping me stuck in this cycle... and trying to give it a break and do it's own thing.