I’m sorry your cake isn’t cooperating. That is so frustrating.Faliciagayle
My mom is going through all the same annoying things with her job hunt since November. Every opportunity is like the carrot you mention and they all manage to disappear. My fingers are crossed that your DH hears soon and it is positive feedback
: This can really wear you down and I’m so sorry you’re both suffering so much.Heather
I’m glad someone
:’s April Fool’s Day because I have no love for it!!
It is my birthday and I’ve had my fill of pranks in this lifetime for sure!
all! It has been a couple days – sorry. I’ve been crazy busy at work and had stupid lunches every day this week which are getting damn expensive. Thankfully today my mom was taking me out for my birthday so I got to eat for free! That was a nice change
So, DH and I had a BIG blowout last night – huge, enormous, I am beside myself. I never mentioned any of this, but he and I had a looooooong talk after my upsetting doctor’s appointment about our plans for the future in terms of more kids. We came to the conclusion that we wanted at least one more for various reasons (yes, even I admitted this
: ) and that we’d try soon, probably around DS’ birthday. So I had a long sleepless night and woke up realizing things weren’t good. I got AF and shouldn’t have – she is painful and still here, 9 days later. It is really bad and the light bulb went off as to why my doctor is in such a rush for me to get PG. Every cycle I have puts me at risk of more endo growing and decreases my chance of an easy conception. I am not happy. So I tell DH this and tell him I’m ready now, lets make a baby. We were “TTC” for a whole 3 days (not actively TTC obviously because I was waiting to ovulate), when he drops this bomb on me last night: “So, we’re waiting until the fall to get pregnant, right? Because we can’t really afford daycare for 2 right now – you know that, right?” My jaw hit the floor. I burst into tears. Knowing how conflicted I’ve been about even deciding whether or not to have any more kids, he should have known this wasn’t a conversation to enter into lightly least of all to make the decision based on money. I freaked. I cried like I haven’t cried in a long time. I went to bed at 9 and didn’t tell him goodnight. He pretended like nothing happened this morning and I feel like he stabbed me in the heart.
What do I do now? I’m so upset. I feel like he’s playing with me and this is such an emotional decision. It was a HUGE step for me to decide definitively that yes, I do want another child and that I’m ready now. I have so many factors to weigh on this – job, my son, my health, my marriage and I decided that it was a good time, but a fleeting window. He just doesn’t get it. He was on board and now is all about waiting and money. I understand he’s trying to be responsible – I get it – but WTF??? Why have “the talk” and agree to TTC if he wasn’t “all in”????
: sorry for the depressing note, I’m just having one of those days.
to you all!! Someone post some funny pics or something please…I need a good chuckle.
Actually, on a funny note, my co-worker and very good friend that I share my office space with left me a bottle of wine with a card this morning. The wine is called “Mommy’s Time Out” – how perfect is that???!!! I have told Marty about once a week when he’s being difficult, “Mommy needs a time out!!”