Seie, things sound so great!
Tripleaces, you and your guy sound so in love and great!
Smooth & Witty has been calling/texting a lot since I last posted.... and when he called last night I was like, "look, it would be nice to plan a date aheade of time instead of just these little impromptu things" and he took the hint right quick and said, "How about Saturday night, are you free? I'm free the whole evening, I'll be all yours" and we arranged a proper date night. Finally. He was already laying in bed when he called and he said he really wished I would be there to sleep next to him already that minute, .........so I said if he asked real nice I would run over and bring my pajamas and toothbrush & sleep next to him and he got so excited and asked me sweetly and I just threw my shoes and coat on and went over (he lives 5 minutes walk away, just around the block). I threw on my pajamas and slid into bed next to him in under ten minutes from his request, and we just gently kissed and snuggled and had all kinds of pillow talk (minus all the normal teasing/joking around which is always great fun but leaves me feeling a gulf between us in terms of getting more emotionally connected) for a couple of hours and then drifted into sleep and hung on to each other in various spooning-directions all the night long. He woke up so glad to see me there next to him and gushing about how nice it was that I came over last minute last night to sleep with him, and he slept so well with me, and wishing we could stay cuddled up all morning if he didn't have to go to work. I kissed him goodbye and said I'd see him saturday. I left feeling like I liked him even more. again. Every time I see him I like him more, and this morning I have had that butterflies feeling while thinking about him, like this has been yet again revived from near-dissipation. Revived quite strongly. But it's the sort of thing where neither one of us is obsessive about the other when we are in the spaces in between meeting....I forget about him if I haven't heard from him in a day or two (or longer) and he seems to not be obsessing over me on his end (if his lack of communication during days-in-a-row and lack of wanting to plan things on his calendar that involves me is any indication), but perhaps that's just us taking things slowly and maturely and it will eventually develop into more and more..... but in a non-co-dependent/needy sort of way, which would be great.
I find him more attractive that he has a full and great life and doesn't NEED a woman (me), and I want to approach a romantic relationship from the same point of wanting to find a man that I WANT to be with, but do not NEED. Hopefully I'll start to get the feeling that he WANTS me in his life awfully badly, despite his healthy un-neediness, and hopefully I'll feel the same way.
But, I had a lunch date with an older gentleman this afternoon, a first meeting from an online dating site for Finnish people. We had been emailing and phone calling for a couple of weeks (during a very Smoothie-less period of March) and finally met in person. I was dubious about him being young-looking-enough to peak my interest, because he's 18 years older than me. However, he is amazing. Think Robert Redford, but 20 years ago. Thick, thick strawberry blonde hair, 6'4", broad shoulders, athletic/fit, piercing blue eyes, looks about ten years younger than he is (I'd have guessed 35)confident posture/gait, and he was dressed in a fine suit and drove up in a jaguar, and had picked the restaurant, which turned out to be one of the finest places in the city to eat.
Oh boy. I showed up in jeans. He didn't warn me that it was gourmet!! I felt horribly intimidated and awkward (and poor!) next to him. How is it that every guy I meet ends up looking down at me from the uppermost socioeconomic echelon, and I feel so ratty in my second hand thrift store clothes, when he just spent last weekend sailing on his yacht.
Well, so far they don't seem to care. So maybe I shouldn't either. It's just weird I keep on accidently on a date with someone who is pretty damned well-off when it's actually pretty uncommon in Finland to be so (there's pretty much one big middle class in Finland and that's about it). What a weird coincidence.
I need a nickname for this grandpa. And I don't wanan call him 'Grandpa', either, because he is so sexy. Um........ let's call him 'the Gentleman.' He really is refined and sophisticated. And I never thought I'd be so attracted to a man 18 years my senior (that's waaaaay more of an age gap than I have any experience with. My ex was 4.5 years older and that was my first age gap of any size at all). But I was definitely attracted. But do any of you have any opinions on this major age difference...? How would it look in ten years, if we ended up together and me and his (currently 18 year old daughter) are maybe pregnant at the same time (I want to have another child at some point in the coming decade)...? Weird, huh?
I plan on playing it by ear and seeing the Gentleman for another elegant lunch. Why not? Well, if things seem like they are turning into a real relationship with Smoothie this weekend, maybe that will be why not. But let's see........
Thanks for making me feel wanted around here, guys!