Daily CHAT April 2nd...

[ShineliketheSon]

Well might as well start this since I'm up. WE had a busy day so I just got on now since this morning. I'm so sad for MI_Dawn and Mischievium . I have to admit it is so hard coming on here and reading those posts, it scares me, but I have to remember God is in control and no matter what he will see me through anything. These terrible tragedies have made me appreciate every little thing about the rest of this pregnancy and to not urge this girl out any sooner than she's ready. I've decided everytime I think of these women to pray for them on the spot and then let God take it...

I'm up with Ctx and sharp pains down below that feel like stretching...I needed a snack too! So I"m not sure what's going on but guess we'll see. Nothing was going on yesterday till 9pm. I did alot of walking and drinking my tea. I am hoping things progress, I told baby Thurs would be a good day to come. Our doula is out of town next week and this weekend the oncall midwife is on and I meet her for the first time Friday. So April 2nd would be great...but I will wait for her to be ready! anyone else up and can't sleep????

[Stephenie]

Good luck with your contractions. Hopefully your hopes for birth will line up with the plan that God and your little one have in mind and you will have your doula around.
I am up way past bedtime because miss Eden wants to nurse nonstop.... but I feel so very blessed to be holding her in my arms with sleep depervation... my heart aches for our mamas who lost their babies.

[BennyPai]

I can't stop thinking about our ddc's losses, either. This happened last time I was pregnant, and an MDC user who knew the Mama IRL set up a way for MDC members to donate to the family through paypal ...

I am awake because my 5yo dd was in my bed and had an accident. I hate waking up in a puddle of pee. DP is sleeping on the couch because we ran out of room for him. I am getting too big, so if the girls want to sleep with us, I've decided DP gets the couch or an empty bunk in the girls' room for now.
After moving the girls around, cleaning the pee, changing the sheets, replacing the girls, and taking a bath, I am as awake as I can be ...

I was able to use these late-night quiet moments to email the two NC Senators on my action list. There is a senate bill here in NC that would make my home birth midwife a felon if it is passed.: Moments like this are why I question that our country is "free."

[*Amy*]

Originally Posted by BennyPai

There is a senate bill here in NC that would make my home birth midwife a felon if it is passed.: Moments like this are why I question that our country is "free."

Wow! That's insane. I live in Indiana, and we just had a bill pass through committee yesterday that will legalize homebirth midwifery! Very exciting for us!

I keep thinking about our DDC losses as well; the mamas (and babies, and families) are on my mind so much and I also struggle with wondering if I should stop visiting until after this baby is born...but like you said, Shine, it is in God's hands. We all have our journey, whether we understand it or not.

I've been up since probably around 4:00, so I feel tired and headachey. I don't work today because I have my 39-week appointment (woo hoo!) so at least it will be a low-key morning once I drop Brynn off at school.

[fairymom]

I'm still here. Didn't get on much yesturday- with back pain and CTXs and just in general early labor stuff. But obiviously not working. Dind't ever get to a point where I felt i should even call the MWs. I don't know feeling really frustrated with everything right now.Been doing this sh*t for a week now- you'd think w/#6 it'd go fast but no. I was home alone w/ds4 and the dog so made it really hard to relax- maybe its related.

Part of me feels so quilty about even feeling the way I do that I should be greatful (don't think I'm not- truly I am- this lo is a mircle!) and not complain and just take life as it comes- in light of the lost los recently.I am just in so much pain and so tired. And I want him out to know he here and love on him.YKWIM?

Have a MW appt on Fri. hope they send me to L/D from there.

[ShineliketheSon]

Originally Posted by fairymom

Part of me feels so quilty about even feeling the way I do that I should be greatful (don't think I'm not- truly I am- this lo is a mircle!) and not complain and just take life as it comes- in light of the lost los recently.I am just in so much pain and so tired. And I want him out to know he here and love on him.YKWIM?
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Same here, but we all still need to focus on doing our jobs to birth our babies and keep positive attitudes so stress doesn't affect baby or the progress of labor. And the other mamas would want us to do so I'm sure... This is why prayer for me is working, when they pop into my head I pray for those mamas and let God take it. Of course I'm doing this quite often but it helps me to keep perspective.

I'm so sorry your in so much pain...this was me last time with DD, for a week I cried nonstop then my water broke and 4 hours later she was here. I guess I expect that to happen this time, but it's all going so differntly.

I had alot of ctx early this morning, then decided to finally try and sleep around 3am. Got into bed and wanted to DTD...weired! So we did and it was GREAT! Then CTX slowed, not what I expected, and I crashed. I just got up with an achy feeling and a few mild ctx. I've gone poo twice allready...hmmmm don't know....

[michanders4]

Originally Posted by *Amy*

I keep thinking about our DDC losses as well; the mamas (and babies, and families) are on my mind so much and I also struggle with wondering if I should stop visiting until after this baby is born...but like you said, Shine, it is in God's hands. We all have our journey, whether we understand it or not.

I think I'm at this point as well. The thought crossed my mind to stop coming on here as well, but as you said Amy and Shine it is in God's hands and coming here/not coming here isn't going to directly effect this baby or myself. All I can do is have faith. I just couldn't believe it when I just signed on and saw Dawn's post though. I couldn't understand how it happened to another person in this DDC. It's just so horrible. I rented a doppler in the beginning of this pregnancy because I was so scared after miscarrying the last one. I ended up returning it and then renting it again at a later point because there were times when I wasn't feeling him move as much as I wanted. Now I (thankfully) feel him move all the time, but I'm very glad to have it on hand when I just need to hear him. We are all so close to the end.. we can do this ladies.

Amy - I have my 39 week appt today too! I can't wait to hear your update!!!!

Originally Posted by ShineliketheSon

I'm up with Ctx and sharp pains down below that feel like stretching...

I'm experiencing a lot of these sharp pains down below that feel like stretching too. What do you think it is being caused by?? I've had them throughout this whole third trimester pretty much, but haven't had them for awhile. I hope it means something!

[ShineliketheSon]

Originally Posted by michanders4

I think I'm at this point as well. The thought crossed my mind to stop coming on here as well, but as you said Amy and Shine it is in God's hands and coming here/not coming here isn't going to directly effect this baby or myself. All I can do is have faith.


I'm experiencing a lot of these sharp pains down below that feel like stretching too. What do you think it is being caused by?? I've had them throughout this whole third trimester pretty much, but haven't had them for awhile. I hope it means something!

Having faith, yup, can't live without that!!! I'm hoping the sharp pains are dilation...I just started having them the last few days when I've had the ctxs..

[ShineliketheSon]

BTW I'm sitting here on a blanket with only my robe on as I can't stand wearing bottoms when I'm feeling like this...may need to stay home today

[Murph12334]

I too just can't believe the losses like the rest of you. It's just so unfair feeling. I hope no one else in our ddc has to go through that. I cry every time for them and their little one. I just can't imagine what they are going through.

I've been sore and crampy at my cervix area. I had a little bloody show. With dd after bloody show I had her 24-48 hours later (I don;t rememebre). So we'll see

Shinel - I'm sitting here with a top on and just underwear for bottoms. I've gotten to the point of HATING pants. They are just annoying my with their waistbands. First thing that come off pretty much when i enter the house!

[ShineliketheSon]

Originally Posted by Murph12334

I've been sore and crampy at my cervix area. I had a little bloody show. With dd after bloody show I had her 24-48 hours later (I don;t rememebre). So we'll see

Shinel - I'm sitting here with a top on and just underwear for bottoms. I've gotten to the point of HATING pants. They are just annoying my with their waistbands. First thing that come off pretty much when i enter the house!

I never had the bloody show last time so will be interesting to see if it shows this time. Hey at least you have underwear...I have NOTHING on down there and it feels so great. DD is up now...

[michanders4]

Clothes are not my friend right now either, but I'm still working and have to put on business casual clothes everyday!!!!

[Azreial]

I pretty much hang out in my nightgown and nothing else all day. I'll throw some clothes on when the kids are coming home or if I have to go out. Once the kids are in bed, nightgown comes back on.

Someone asked on the yesterdays thread about not getting u/s for size or est of size. I haven't gotten any either. My hb mw asks me how big I think the baby is going to be. She's said she doesn't think its going to be as big as #2. The bc just tells me everything looks good.

[Murph12334]

Originally Posted by ShineliketheSon

I never had the bloody show last time so will be interesting to see if it shows this time. Hey at least you have underwear...I have NOTHING on down there and it feels so great. DD is up now...

yeah without underwear is even more comfy, but we have a dog and dd is 3 and would just keep commenting and i'd get annoyed too quickly...

[Murph12334]

Originally Posted by Azreial

Someone asked on the yesterdays thread about not getting u/s for size or est of size. I haven't gotten any either. My hb mw asks me how big I think the baby is going to be. She's said she doesn't think its going to be as big as #2. The bc just tells me everything looks good.

People keep asking about size as well...I just say I have no clue. The practice I go to measures your tummy, but I don;t think they do anything more evasive to find out unless you are measuring too small or too big, which i'm not.

[fairymom]

Originally Posted by Murph12334

yeah without underwear is even more comfy, but we have a dog and dd is 3 and would just keep commenting and i'd get annoyed too quickly...

Here too. DS4 would find it too silly. and I already have to push the dog way a million times a day- she's obsessed w/sniffing me! I like big and baggy no bra or underwear (unless I have a MW appt or US).

Also my ex lives in the unit upstairs and drops by almost daily or his roommates do so I'd be getting dressed and redressed too many times.

[ShineliketheSon]

My DD hasn't noticed yet, so we'll see if she says anything I'm pretty covered and no dog here...

I just threw up...Something has to be going on here or I'm going to be very disappointed, even though i shouldn't be...

ETA Dh just left for work and I was quite emotional bout it. I know he can come home if things progress but I guess I just feel weird today and wanted him home

[michanders4]

Originally Posted by Murph12334

People keep asking about size as well...I just say I have no clue. The practice I go to measures your tummy, but I don;t think they do anything more evasive to find out unless you are measuring too small or too big, which i'm not.

This is why I have been going in for more u/s's besides the routine ones. I have been consistently measuring ahead. We did discover that my fluid level is on the high end of normal so that contributes. At my 38 week appt last week I was measuring 43 cm and that is when she decided she wanted me in for another u/s. She said that if you get to your due date and still haven't had the baby she normally sends you in for one anyway, but I guess decided to do it this week due to my size. I had an u/s at 29 weeks and 33 weeks and at each of those he was measuring in the 62nd percentile (so not TOO big) so I'm guessing we will hear the same thing today.

[laurilj]

oops, posted this in yesterday's thread.

My midwife guessed 6 pounds at 34 weeks, and after that hasn't wanted to guess or tell me what she thinks. She's been pretty strict about my diet because I'm at risk for GD but never developed it, and I get the feeling that she thinks I'm going to have a huge baby and doesn't want to scare me by saying I have to push out a 10 pounder. She did say that she didn't think it would be good for me to go much past my due date.



After Mischevium's terrible news I've been feeling pretty down, and last night I had a breakdown pretty much freaking out about any number of things that can go wrong between now and the birth, and beyond. And just as I got here this morning I saw the thread with "stillbirth" in the title, which I can't bear to read. I hate that these things are happening. This forum has been a great source of information and comfort in the past few weeks, but that kind of news has such a powerful effect on me that I don't know if I should allow myself to be exposed to it. I do want to read all of the birth announcements and stories that I know are coming, but I may have to lay off for a while until my baby comes. I don't know. I hope you all are doing well.

[ShineliketheSon]

Originally Posted by laurilj

After Mischevium's terrible news I've been feeling pretty down, and last night I had a breakdown pretty much freaking out about any number of things that can go wrong between now and the birth, and beyond. And just as I got here this morning I saw the thread with "stillbirth" in the title, which I can't bear to read. I hate that these things are happening. This forum has been a great source of information and comfort in the past few weeks, but that kind of news has such a powerful effect on me that I don't know if I should allow myself to be exposed to it. I do want to read all of the birth announcements and stories that I know are coming, but I may have to lay off for a while until my baby comes. I don't know. I hope you all are doing well.

It's okay to feel what you feel and to do what you need to do. I felt this way too but have been able to find peace through prayer and faith. I stepped away for a day... I can be on here now but I know at any moment if I start to feel overwhelmed with emotion, I will have to step away.

On another note. I am having tightness but not necessarily contractions at this time. I just took a long bath and almost fell asleep so I need a nap. I called our sitter who is homeschooled and she's coming over in 30 min so I can nap...and if things progress then I'll call DH home. I'm so irritable I don't want to be cranky at DD all day...