Sept DDC PAL Thread for April

[lisa_nc]

How is everyone?

Midwife appointment today--everything sounds great! I'll get an ultrasound around 30 weeks to make sure the placenta isn't near my scar, but other than that I guess it's just wait and see!

Tomorrow's my due date. I am not really sure how to feel or what to do. I am still terribly sad but happy at the same time for the new one. It's such a strange place to be. Did any of you do anything on your due dates?

[ChaoticMum]

I remember that feelign - being terribly sad, but so thankful I was able to conceive again. My due date for the babe I lost was April 28th. I was pregnant again and due Aug 2. (she arrived Aug 11!) I cried and cried on the 28th of April. It has gotten easier and easier each year - I almost forget sometimes, but I NEVER EVER forget the day I LOST my babe.

As for how I am - good, waiting for my doc appt next week and doing my best to prepare myself for a hospital birth after two wonderful home births!

[Julia24]

I am pretty unhappy around the time I LOST the last baby (bc it not only signifies that - but it's also the same week I found out my dh had been having an affair - my world LITERALLY came crashing down around me in every way possible) Anyways - that time weighs so heavy on my heart, I honestly don't even KNOW when my duedate would have been?

I've been actually feeling pretty GREAT! And I mean it, GREAT! But then on Friday at my appt my AFP screen came back with an elevated risk for neural tube defects (and I know that I had lots of folic acid in the times before we conceived)....

SO - now - I'm pretty nervous - waiting for my ultrasound to hopefully alleviate that concern. Ugh.

It's not the end of the world though, of all the issues, this one is pretty manageable for the most part - should it actually come to fruition. (it's even RARER for it to be a serious defect)

So - that's where I'm at, feeling so wonderful about the whole thing bc not only does this mean my body isn't broken, which is how I was feeling, but that our relationship has gotten back a point where we feel comfortable bringing a new life into the world (2 years later) - and I wasn't sure that would ever happen either, yk?

Life is pretty good.

[diana_of_the_dunes]

I feel pretty good overall. Once I had my ultrasound and knew that this baby had developed, it went a long way towards easing my fears. Last appointment I heard the heartbeat, so that was reassuring too.

My due date isn't until May, and as it approaches, I keep thinking, "I would have never been ready for a baby by then!" Our upstairs is still in the process of being remodeled, and having work done in the winter never seems to work out. But I still miss that baby and wonder what he/she would have been like. The whole thing is still very strange for me, and I have a hard time sorting out all my feelings. Especially when I think that I wouldn't have this baby if the other had been born...

[joeys_mom]

I'm feeling much better and I heard the heartbeat at 15w so it made things more real. I have my 20w u/s on April 24th and I can't wait to make sure everything is ok

My due date was March 5 and it was really nice to see the healthy babies being born around that time. I feel so blessed to be pregnant again and the only thought I had is that I would have had a babe in arms by now if it had survived, very surreal.

I still worry sometimes and can't wait until the big movements start.

[SMR]

I don't have any due date anniversary to 'look forward' too, just Dresden's 1st birthday.. which I fully intend to be holding onto this baby tightly on that day! But we'll have cake and celebrate our sweet Dresden!

I'm doing well still. I'm still amazed how positive I feel. I'm wondering if when I start feeling the baby move regularly is when I'll get more worried? I hope I can keep up the good feelings through the pregnancy. I'm sure going to try!

I got some sad news from my sister in law the other day... she had a miscarriage at 8ish weeks.. I guess my DH and I just have this feeling like people we know and love should be PROTECTED.. I mean, wasn't our baby dying at 39 weeks enough? But no, we realize that our loss can't protect anyone.. not even us. So, we just wait and hope and wish for September to arrive!

I have an ultrasound in 2 weeks.. hoping to find out if we have a boy or girl! I feel strongly that it's a boy!

[lisa_nc]

Shannon, I am sorry about your SIL's baby.

You've been so positive for this whole pregnancy. I seriously tell myself "If Shannon is positive, you should be too!" So now you have peer pressure to keep it up.

The due date wasn't bad at all actually. I don't know why I thought it would be. It really didn't carry the meaning that I thought it would. I am sure the day he died will be a different story, but I also plan on holding tight to the new LO that day.

[preemiemamarach]

My EDD for the most recent loss is April 9th. My son was in the PICU most of last week after a near-fatal allergic reaction to medication, and he's likely to go back in the hospital before the end of the week. Since I would have had an early baby d/t the bicornuate uterus, I would be going through all of this with a preemie newborn right now! No freaking way. One of my friends from another board is in labor right now- we got our BFP's last time on the same day- and it is a teeny bit hard to watch that happening, but I do know that for *us*, having a newborn right now would be awful timing. I am hoping DS is more stable by the time the newbie shows up.

[deymm]

Hi everyone!

I just got back from a week of vacation--it was wonderful!

I was wearing maternity clothes the whole time, so I guess I'll accept that I'm pregnant now.

I have my 20 week ultrasound on Tues and then see the MW next week.

I have been feeling more movement, which is great, but I still can't wait to see that little one on the screen. I have also been exercising more and I am feeling better physically, which helps emotionally too.

My angel would be 7 months old now. I just had another friend miscarry a couple weeks ago and we talked about how our angels were playing together up in heaven. I'm so sad that I can share the experience with her, but glad that she has someone that can relate, YKWIM?

[SMR]

Originally Posted by lisa_nc

Shannon, I am sorry about your SIL's baby.

You've been so positive for this whole pregnancy. I seriously tell myself "If Shannon is positive, you should be too!" So now you have peer pressure to keep it up.

The due date wasn't bad at all actually. I don't know why I thought it would be. It really didn't carry the meaning that I thought it would. I am sure the day he died will be a different story, but I also plan on holding tight to the new LO that day.

OH no!! pressure! haha Actually I don't mind peer pressure for good things! As long as you don't try getting me to smoke ciggarettes or something! haha Well, I will certainly try to keep up the positive thoughts.. it's been so much easier than I thought it would.. I just feel like I KNOW everything is going to be okay, and I WILL be holding this living screaming baby in a few short months! If we all work together, we can be happy and positive - maybe not all the time, but most of the time!

I'm glad the due date wasn't so bad. I think the fact that we'll be holding these babes in our bellies on the day our babies died, will help the fact that they aren't here with us. It has to right?

[deymm]

Saw my baby this morning and all is well. I think I just might enjoy being pregnant now!

[CaliMommie]

I had a HB midwife appointment today, heard the heartbeat, met her apprentice (who I actually know from highschool), all went well.

[green_sturgeon]

This week has been full of loss milestones...my miscarriage was a year ago - started bleeding on the 13th, ultrasound with no heartbeat on the 15th, and today, the 17th, is the anniversary of my d&c. I'm sad, but I'm okay. I know it's different than what Shannon, or Lisa, or others will have to go through with the memory of birthing a baby who wasn't living, but it's still sad. I actually wish I could have seen my baby, but I'm very grateful that I was not any farther into the pregnancy (I was 13 wks when bleeding started, and baby probably died at 11 wks). Anyway, the anniversary is not as bad as I thought it might be. Being pregnant again helps, I think, although this week I've felt more anxious about the pregnancy again. I had a midwife appointment last week, though, and we heard the heartbeat and the midwife said my uterus felt "exactly right" for 15 weeks. So I will keep trying to be positive.

I do wonder what my miscarried baby would have been like - I don't know if it was a boy or a girl, but DH and I think it was a girl and we call her Skye. So I'll light a candle for her and then move on and focus on my DS and this new little one.

[cristeen]

Originally Posted by green_sturgeon

I do wonder what my miscarried baby would have been like - I don't know if it was a boy or a girl, but DH and I think it was a girl and we call her Skye. So I'll light a candle for her and then move on and focus on my DS and this new little one.

My son's 2nd birthday is fast approaching... I'm hoping that being pregnant this year will help me through it - I know that last year DH and I wound up spending all day in bed. But we don't have our u/s until a week after his birthday, so we don't even get that reassurance beforehand.

[CaliMommie]

to everyone!

So I went for a 3D u/s Friday & we found out that baby is healthy & we are having a GIRL! We are thrilled, now we will have two boys and two girls!

[deymm]

Congrats Amy!

[CaliMommie]

Thanks! It really makes this pregnancy seem more real.

[deymm]

Originally Posted by CaliMommie

Thanks! It really makes this pregnancy seem more real.

I know what you mean. I had my 20 wk u/s last week and am now finally happy and excited about this pregnancy.

[jimblejamble]

On Wednesday I'm going to go tour the birth center and meet with the midwife and next Monday I'm going in for an ultrasound. If I bring a blank DVD they'll record it for me. Cool!

[deymm]

I am officially accepting and celebrating this pregnancy.

I am 21 weeks, had a perfect u/s last week, and a great MW appt today. Baby's heart rate is right on, my weight gain is good, my BP is low. Everything is perfect.

We are moving in the next several weeks and I can't wait to finally make a house our HOME and welcome our baby into the world there.